Nancy’s Weight loss Journey 5 Yrs & Counting

What a quiet and uneventful weekend.  I spent the day sleeping, hanging out with my niece and nephews an honey.

I guess WILDFIRE is back in the picture.  She is a mean one.  :)  I got up on the right side of bed and in 10 minutes tripped and started an argument with Rod.  It took talking to a sweet, caring friend, who just by lending a pair of listening, non-judgemental ears helped calm me down.  I am proud of myself for not: breaking anything, walking away and let it ride.  Came back, talked about it and you know what - we good now.

I did not exercise all weekend.  My feet were a bit sore.  I bought some new gel insoles for my shoes for Friday’s Kickboxing and Zumba class.  They worked ok.  Instead of pushing the envelope, I allowed my feet to rest.

HOLLY - OK I AM LOVING ZUMBA!!! :)  Second class and me likey likey!

I’m good to go for Monday’s Kickboxing, weights and Step combination.  I am ready to modify out anything that would be a lot of weight on my feet to aggravate them.  I think it’s the current kickboxing round - it requires us to be on our toes more so then utilizing our whole feet - thus I can feel it but I do know how to work with it.  But I am a pro at making it all work for me and with two days of rest in - I’m very happy with how it feels.  Yes, cautious cautious is the best way to proceed.

I love love love love love love seafood - especially fish.  I am a fan of tilipia  - cheap, easy , verstile and it’s sooooo good.  I tried to grill some catfish this weekend; my sis and I were so hungry we ate it a bit raw - back on the grill it went.

Bascally I keep my cooking style simple - 1 grill, some PAM, grill and with some rice and fish sauce I’m good.

My question is, what fish do you love (if any) and how do you cook it?  IDEAS!!!!!!!

Today I truly did not want to write.  For what reason should I do this?  But I decided I must do it.  I must account for my feelings, thoughts -good or bad.  It is after all a chronicle of my weightloss journey.  I guess I feel a bit like I’ve talked about everything I want to talk about.  I already addressed so many different issues - does anyone really care what I think? 

Well, after thinking for a while - I do know of one person who cares what I think!  ME!!!!!

Like last night, I had one of my worse workouts in a long time.  NOT because I didn’t eat adequately because I did!  Not because I didn’t sleep adequately because I got in 7 hours.  NOT because I didn’t drink enough water or did not take my vitamins!  I did everything I was suppose to do to prepare for my classes, but I lacked one thing today - MENTAL STABILITY!

I had too many thoughts on my mind.  I missed count during kickboxing and I just felt blah.  I’m mad that I allowed my mental state to effect my workout.  Usually I can use whatever is going on in my head to help foster a very good session, but I couldn’t last night.

Therefore, my goal for Friday is to release stress and not allow ANYTHING ANYTHING MESS UP MY WORKOUT! 

I do have one thought:  I DON’T CARE IF A PERSON LOST WEIGHT FROM EXTREME DIETING - STARVING IS STARVING - IF WHAT YOU WANT IS A TEMPORARY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY THEN SO BE IT - BUT I’M NOT ONE TO GIVE YOU THE KUDOS YOU FEEL YOU DESERVE.  THAT’S JUST ME!  I WOULD RATHER BOW DOWN TO THE PERSON WHO LOST 10 LBS IN ONE YEAR THEN TO THE PERSON WHO LOST 70 LBS IN 3 MONTHS BY SACRIFICING THEIR HEALTH IN THE FUTURE!!!!!!!!!   So what - you look good now but once you started EATING again and because YOU didn’t learn the skills to keep the weight of permanently - YOU WILL GAIN IT BACK!!!

GUESS WHO GETS TO KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF?  THE ONE WHO LOST 10 LBS!!!   If all you want is a temporary FIX, then I’m not one to support you!

Why this bothers me - because its sends the wrong impression to new people on this journey. NO you don’t need to rush your journey or expect to drop 5 lbs every week.  Life is not Biggest Loser!  Yes, you will lose a couple lbs a month or maintain but be proud because you are doing your body good!!!!!  Until these people who starve themselves, fast take diet pills sustain their weight loss for 5 years or more and their health and body AND WALLET did not suffer - then I say ok.  Until then, I’m not going to be saying GREAT JOB!! Because then I’m being fake!  And I have no respect for those who goes around promoting this lifestyle either!!! I know I’m extreme but shi* but that is how I see it.

Yah, you’re right, it’s their life and you know that’s why I leave them alone - not my business, but I will say in my journal how I feel about it though - don’t care what they say or think.  I just know that I’m against it and I have some pretty good valid reasons why!

What happens when you take two people - one don’t drink often and the other drinks mainly beer?  CORKSCREWLESS PEOPLE!  LOL And the thing is I’m too cheap - yes I said it, I’m tooooooo cheap to buy one.

Few options:

1. We don’t drink our red wine (ROD gets no booooootay)

2.  Rod breaks the bottle while he attempts to open the bottle

3.  We drink Red Wine with some cork bits floating around….yummmy extra fiber

4. We push the cork down into the bottle and we are good to go.

GHETTOOO! That’s us.  We don’t drink enough red wine to warrant buying a corkscrew.  Yep he pushed the cork down cursing my name the whole way and then said to me, now we have to drink it all because we have nothing to close it with.  Well, the first glass made me sick and I threw up some of my dinner.  Not sure why I reacted badly to it.

I am super super sore from my neck down.  Every muscle group screams my name from Monday’s nearly 3 hours of cardio and weights.  I love love love the soreness.

I came home, I was sooooo tired I fell asleep and missed my yoga class.

Thus today it’s all about getting kickboxing and pilates in.  I will do some upper body but very very light weights.  I know that the pilates class will be a ballet/pilates fusion class so my arms will be completely sore from it.

I’m planning on eating a lot of food again - around 1900 calories before class and 2900 calories for the day.  Now, I’m not sure what went wrong Monday, but the Protein shake I bought which was 420 calories, didn’t do it’s job.  HummmphFFF.

I guess I have to stick to a new food plan:

Breakfast: 3 egg whites, 2 cups of steel cut oats with goji berries, 1/2 can of kidney beans

Snack: 2 cups frozen strawberries with Greek nonfat yogurt, 1 pear

Lunch: 1 grilled chicken thigh, sun dried tomatoes, hummus and  rye crispbread, 1fruit smoothie

Snack: 1 banana, 1 coleslaw with peanuts and my Trader Joe’s Vinaigrette

1 energy bar and Powerade zero calories for electrolytes.

Have I ever said Thank You for all the booster notes I get?  WELL THANK YOU!!

I signed on to a very nice messages from you guys.  Ahhhh my heart melts just a little.

Amanda, you asked a very very good question.  HOW DOES ONE ADD PICS TO THEIR PROFILE?  I don’t know if this is the only way, but this is what I did.  I faked it and it worked! :)  I first resize all the photos I want to add.  The ones I can add on the right where you enter the about you section, I keep them around 500X500.  The ones on the left, where you enter your interests, schools and other information, Like I would give out that info, well those must be resized to a much much smaller size like 200×200.

Then upload all these pics into your www.photobucket.com account, you must have an account to do this.  Then grab the CODE, try them all, one will work, copy and paste it into whatever section you what…..ie, if you want in the about me section, you paste the code there.   Now you must make sure you don’t have a lot of texts, if you do, you must modify your about section or whatever section so that there is enough room for the codes.

That’s what I did.  After playing with it for a while, I became a master of it.  But it did take a lot of trial and error.

Last night I met every goal I set for myself. (I thought I finished my blog but I didn’t).

I went to kickboxing, did 45 minutes of pure upper body weights with push-ups, then I did the step class.

This step class is very advanced.  Most of her students have been coming for over 10 years to her.

Being a newbie to her class I knew my work was cut out for me.  The first class I learned that she moves very fast and her choreography very complex.  A lot of it, not done carefully can lead to trip and falls and injury.

I knew I couldn’t and refuse to give up.  Last night I found myself picking it faster and because I told myself never to get frustrated and to continue practicing, I picked up some of the older choreography and keeping up with the new.

What I love about step, there are 1 million and 1 plus moves. Never boring and it makes you think. You don’t have time to stand and do nothing.  I love this class and instructor.  I hope to continue on with many years to come with her just as I do with my other classes.

Yep, baby steps are leading to big long strides.

Tonight my plan is to take a very late yoga class at 7:30pm but before that I want to do an easy jog/run since I have not done one in a while and maybe the elliptical.  I’m a bit sore from yesterday so nothing heavy needed in terms of cardio.

Holly and those interested, I had  an OK time with Zumba on Friday.  I certainly prefer HIP HOP but you know what, I need to suck it up and find the positives in Zumba.  Holly, I think it’s all Lana.  I think she’s not bringing out the big guns since it’s our first official Zumba class.   I do have another option though, should Zumba not work, I will get off work early and take the Hula class before kickboxing.  I will work with it and hopefully learn to love it.  I promise myself that much.  I won’t give up on Zumba just yet.

3 1 0 0  yep  taking it to 3100 calories.

I’m doing something new again this week.  I’m adding a short 45 minutes upper body weights session in between kickboxing and Step.  I am never a fan of doing cardio, weights then cardio.  I prefer weights, cardio and cardio.  BUT here I have no choice.  I’m limited to the class schedule and my work schedule.  Will make due and use my time wisely. 

2.45 hours of some pure un-adultured orgasmic gym love.   LOL!!

MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK IS MONDAY!!!  I GET TO EAT TONS AND TONS OF FOOD.  Most of the time I can’t finish my food listed because my body can’t digest it fast enough.  I learned to start my eating right and 8am,when I get to work and something every 30 to 40 minutes.  It worked last week.

Food:
3 egg whites hard boiled
1/3 cup of kidney beans
1 pear
Coffee with cream
2 cups of strawberries with Greek plain nonfat yogurt

Snack:
1 cup of steel cut oats with goji berries

Lunch:
Grilled chicken leg quarters in Chinese slaw salad with roasted peanuts and my Asian Vinaigrette dressing
Sun dried tomatoe and hummus on toasted rye crispbread

Snack:
2 banana
1 Naked Juice smoothie

And other food to be determined.

Water around 145 oz

1 Powerade zero calorie drink for electrolytes

1 energy bar between classes

IPOD - CHECK - GOT SOME NEW MUSIC HOOKED UP!!!!

BTW, I HAD TO LAUGH MY ASS OFF - SOME WANNA BE SPAMMER IS SELLING US THE BENEFITS OF WEIGHTLOSS DRUGS.  I LAUGH AS I WALK AWAY WITH MY MONEY IN MY POCKET.  HAHA!!

You know what I don’t like about change?  It’s making change to accommodate change!

I told my girl Nicole, how overwhelmed I am with all the changes I made in my life, specifically the last few months.  It got to a point where I just feel like saying screw it!!! I don’t want to do this anymore.

I don’t want to change how I dress!  I don’t want to change who I am!  I don’t want to change to appease other people!  I don’t want to change just so someone approves of me!

Screw that crap!  If people don’t like me for who I am, what I stand for and what I’m about, then that is there problem not mine!

Lately I feel like I damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t.  If I do something, someone somewhere in this universe is upset by my action.  If I don’t do something, someone in this universe is upset with my action.

You know what?  I’m me!  For a while my focus on buddyslim was skewed.  Skewed so much that I was letting my energy focus on the wrong issues.  I need to refocus, re energize and care, worry about issues that makes me happy with contentment.

Contentment comes to me in the form of:

WILDCATS PROGRESS!!!! Whether or not we win each week is not important.  What matters to me is seeing each of my friends, my cats, my buddies reach their goals.  Nothing excites me more then seeing joy in accomplishing our goals

EDUCATION Believe it or not, I continue to learn more and more about this weightloss lifestyle by being active here each and every day.   By participating each day in blogs and the forums, I learn at least one new thing I can incorporate into my life

WHY DO I BOTHER TO BE HERE? Because it’s about doing it with NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING BUT GOOD INTENTIONS!!!!  I am not here to gloat about what I do each day.  If you think I gloat, then don’t read my blogs or what I post.  I only post what I do in my life and how I address my exercise and food issues.  I’m not here to be MISS POPULARITY!!  I’m here because I want to make a difference.  There are days I feel like you know, I don’t need to keep a public journal of my life, some people are going to think I’m full of myself.  SO FREAKIN’ WHAT!!! IT’S MY LIFE AND I’M LIVING IT EACH DAY!!!  You don’t like it or think that I act like I think I’m better then you, then at the click of a button, you can move on the next post.

So with change comes more change.  I am evolving into a better person…..thanks SANDY!  That’s how I roll now. 

First Sunday workout in a long time.  I didn’t exercise at all Saturday.  Therefore today I am doing weights, push-ups - my own bootcamp workout and yoga.

No offense to Zumba lovers like my girl Holly but come on -!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Why do this to me now.  I’ve been enjoying hip hop and getting into it the last 4 months or so NOW lana tells us she’s changing it to Zumba.  Well, I hope to become a Zumba lover sooner then later.  How I hate hate  hate change!

I know most people will not believe me but I am so much a loner.  Most of my life I was a loner.  I tend to love to easy, too hard and I put my all into it.  I learned from a young age the best way to protect the heart is to not allow too many people in.  Those that you do have the potential to hurt you.  Most of all by walking away - that goes to my love, my friends and family.

 I’m a sucker for love.  I love immensely but when or I feel hurt I can retract and the wall is up so high most people will not be allowed in to hurt me.  That is what I do, create a fort so I’m isolated from love and the pain that comes with it.

Today I’m eating about 2500 calories total.  1800 to 1900 of it before my kickboxing and hip hop class. 

What I’m eating today:

oatmeal with goji berries

cantaloupe

apples

persimmons

green tea

coffee with cream

grilled chicken

cucumber

sundried tomatoe with rye crispbread

Naked juice I need it for fuel

2 bananas

kidney beans and other food. 

WHOOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!!

Got my orange and black outfit for my classes!!

Rod:  Honey you lost weight

Nancy: Ummmmm no I didn’t!!!! But people keep telling me this.  I know I know - all in my head.

Rod: Well, you did lose weight

(Drama: Rod continues playing with Nancy’s back fat…)

Rod: Honey, you have more stretch marks on your back.  More then ever.  That is how I know you lost weight.

Nancy: Thanks baby.  What a nice compliment….arrrrhhhhhh   ????????????????

Seriously, weightloss by stretch mark is where my life falls now.  Yes I have stretch marks on my back, my arms, my thighs, inner thighs, I have stretch marks everywhere.

Heck - let’s call it STRETCH MARK CITY!!

I know he meant well but man, a new way to look at a loss: STRETCH MARKS - THE MORE THE BETTER?  LOL!

BTW, I read the stupidest remarke some childish immature brat decided to leave in forum.  I will apologize to Tanika and all the new people who don’t normally use the forum - not everyone here are insensitive and hides behind the internet to make nasty remarks.  Welcome to buddyslim!

Anyone who wants to be nice and say something nice to motivate a new buddy - click on the link below.  I hate dumb as* people like that 101 yr  old man - fake or not - no need to be negative like that!

http://www.weight-loss-forums.buddyslim.com/weight-loss-support/5629-weightloss-buddy.html

OH WOW!  I am usually never MIA on a weekday.  It’s almost a ritual that I’m here from Sunday through Friday.  Has been for the past year.

The last two days I went to visit a friend a six hour road trip to be exact.  It was a long long 12  hour round trip drive in two days.  And my honey got a ticket 5 miles close to the border.  We were suppose to switch driving because he is a speeder by nature but it was 5 miles too long.  I had a fun time with my girl.  I’m glad I got to see her before she left.  I will likely visit her again next year. 

What did I eat?  Yesterday was bad all around.  The great thing is I worked it off sweating with my friend.  Every single calorie was needed.

Breakfast:

French toast with bacon, eggs, and sausage, coffee

Lunch:

KFC grilled chicken breast with coleslaw 3 biscuits, mash potato and M&M’s, a monster drink,a ton of coffee and snackfood in between.

Dinner:

Convenient store hot dogs, 1/2 a corn dog, pork rind, and some of Rod’s food

Today’s food isn’t any better.  But it was the trip home and I eat what’s available.

Well, there goes two days of bad eating. I’m ok with it because I wanted to eat that way.  Difference between me and many people is that I acknowledged and knew when I am going to eat this food.  What I do next is also very me.  Tomorrow and the next few days it’s hard core exercise and clean healthy food.

Let’s say Rod and I won’t be doing a road trip anytime soon.  IT’s too much bad food and too much sitting on my booootay other then to help my friend for a few hours.

Like everything else that is a first, our first road trip was a great one minus the ticket!!!!

Thursday I plan on taking a step class and getting some weights in.  Yep more food for me but clean healthy food.

OH AND I MISS BUDDYSLIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S TIME TO CATCH UP!

I’m am as tired as tired can be.  I started eating my 3000 calories worth of food at 8am. I combined oats, with goji berries, fruits, protein in the form of kidney beans, I even had 12 oz of chicken noodle soup, bananas, persimmons I had energy packed sun dried tomato on high fiber crispbread.  I had so much food!

Then before going to the gym I knew I didn’t eat close to the 2000 calories needed for kickboxing, a walk in between and step.  So I bought a NAKED Acai berry drink - I don’t like taking my fruit in juice form but at 360 calories it’s needed.

Then I drank all of my 0 calorie Powerade for electrolytes then ate my APEX energy bar and drank a ton of water.  Oh, not to forget the green tea I had all day with my goji berries.

I had so much fun!!!! I swear I came alive with the first class kickboxing.  All depression signs, negative thoughts flew out the freakin’ window.  It was 55 minutes of high impact cardio with low impact core work.  Then I walked for 1/2 an hour to take my heart rate down.  Then I did a very advanced step class that  I now can say I’ve caught up to.

I feel better - but I had to skip one thing pears.  Rod said he won’t eat the pears I bought because it makes him pass gas.  I should have listened.  The pears I ate made me go and go and go some more.

Can’t no one take this feeling of success away from me - that includes my negative self.

I put aside my problems and for 2 1/2 hours I was one with myself.  Can’t ask for more then that!!!!

For dinner it’s corn, chicken and rice and fish! :)  3000 calories oh yes - and I’m going to lose inches from it.

WHY DO PEOPLE THINK THEY HAVE TO EAT SO LITTLE TO LOSE WEIGHT?  I SAY THAT IS BULLSHI*!!!!!