Nancy’s Weight loss Journey 5 Yrs & Counting

Got that right!

As I told my buddy Jess, Tuesday was a great day! 

I stuck to my plan for my off exercise day which turned out to be more exercise then off.  I used www.mapmyrun.com to figure out where I can walk and what the distance is.  Great site!  Base on that I know that I can get 4 miles easy in during my 2 breaks and lunch.

I have to tell you, I really wasn’t in the mood to walk, but since I set a goal, I must achieve.  When it was time for the lunch walk of 2.10 miles, there was for a split second a thought to cut corners and cheat!! I thought to self, self - if you cheat and cut corners, who loses?  Not anyone but me! So I did all 4 miles and was very proud of myself.  And I added in some core work too by walking the edge of the side walk like it was a balance beam.

I got a text from Nygel before going home - girl, I’m subbing Cat’s yoga class - you coming?  Of course!! I was there faster then an Asian girl gulping down her rice (me).

I got there early so I did 15 minutes on the elliptical then, since I got bored waiting for yoga to start at 5:30, I ended up doing 20 minutes of the kickboxing class that was ending.  Giving self a high five - lots in for a NON-EXERCISE night!

Oh - and let’s not forget the 100 push-ups we did in yoga - tricep push-ups my favorite killers!!!!  So no weights Wednesday since I did push-ups and weights two days in a row.

Today it’s simple kickboxing and pilates!! WHOO HOOOOO!!! Gotta love the rush!

I’m in a much better mood.  Broke or not, I just have to deal with all the lemons rolling my way.  Anyone want some lemonade?  Sugar too?  LOL!!!!!!

What happens when you take two people - one don’t drink often and the other drinks mainly beer?  CORKSCREWLESS PEOPLE!  LOL And the thing is I’m too cheap - yes I said it, I’m tooooooo cheap to buy one.

Few options:

1. We don’t drink our red wine (ROD gets no booooootay)

2.  Rod breaks the bottle while he attempts to open the bottle

3.  We drink Red Wine with some cork bits floating around….yummmy extra fiber

4. We push the cork down into the bottle and we are good to go.

GHETTOOO! That’s us.  We don’t drink enough red wine to warrant buying a corkscrew.  Yep he pushed the cork down cursing my name the whole way and then said to me, now we have to drink it all because we have nothing to close it with.  Well, the first glass made me sick and I threw up some of my dinner.  Not sure why I reacted badly to it.

I am super super sore from my neck down.  Every muscle group screams my name from Monday’s nearly 3 hours of cardio and weights.  I love love love the soreness.

I came home, I was sooooo tired I fell asleep and missed my yoga class.

Thus today it’s all about getting kickboxing and pilates in.  I will do some upper body but very very light weights.  I know that the pilates class will be a ballet/pilates fusion class so my arms will be completely sore from it.

I’m planning on eating a lot of food again - around 1900 calories before class and 2900 calories for the day.  Now, I’m not sure what went wrong Monday, but the Protein shake I bought which was 420 calories, didn’t do it’s job.  HummmphFFF.

I guess I have to stick to a new food plan:

Breakfast: 3 egg whites, 2 cups of steel cut oats with goji berries, 1/2 can of kidney beans

Snack: 2 cups frozen strawberries with Greek nonfat yogurt, 1 pear

Lunch: 1 grilled chicken thigh, sun dried tomatoes, hummus and  rye crispbread, 1fruit smoothie

Snack: 1 banana, 1 coleslaw with peanuts and my Trader Joe’s Vinaigrette

1 energy bar and Powerade zero calories for electrolytes.

As I’m doing my push-ups this evening this thought plays in my head.  hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm what’s my dream weight and size?  My dream weight would be 120 lbs and a size 4 (but is it possible to be both LOL)?? As you can tell I’ve never been 120 or a size 4.

BUT THEN REALITY SETS IN!! Ohhhhhhhhhhh nooooo girly girl, not for me.  I realize that ideally my goal weight is about 135 or 140 - something that is so close I can almost taste it but so far away.  My size would be a 5/7.  That is just about where I’m at now.  Although with my broad shoulders I can fit all mediums and a few small.

I passed by Rod and for once he said, honey your arms shrunk a bit!!! SCORE!! LOL small victories!

I didn’t sleep a lot last night. Too many thoughts in my head.  That and a long day added up to  175 regular push-ups at home and I’m in the process of doing weights, pure weights.  No JIM date.

BUT TOMORROW BACK TO EATING!!! HAHAHA eating eating eating to my hearts content.  I already have my meals planned out.  I can get away with 1900 calories and do kickboxing and pilates.  Although Pilates will kick my butt it’s Ballet/Pilates.

Why is it I take such pleasure in the little things in life?  I do.  I get soooo excited about my brand new day!!

What an exhausting exhausting day!!!!

Rod and I, I swear we are like one soul.  Our 2nd yr anniversary is coming in 3 days and we are doing better then ever.  HE decided to relive our first date again.  So we rent Transformer, Dinner and a walk on the beach at sunrise.  How cool is that?  It’s a good thing there’s a romantic soul in this relationship.

Today we went on a open call with a modeling agency.  He got the initial interview and a second one tomorrow.  She said “tighter pants but not too tight”.  My honey wants me to go again tomorrow but I have this thing call work.

Yesterday I did my Kickboxing and Pilates class!  Yes Yes - all that food I ate was well worth it.  I came home beat.  I loved loved it!

Today no exercise because I was sooo busy.

But tomorrow it’s back to My kickboxing and hip hop class!  I am so loving my Fridays.  I’m loving my 2000 calories before hitting the gym.  It gives me a ton of energy and everything I need to just kick it up to another level.

For lunch/late eating I had a pancake, bacon, egg white and sausage meal at Denny’s.  It’s all good because it works right into my calorie requirement for the day.

I have a bit more to eat.  And since I’m doing the WILDCAT Biggest Loser Challenge I need to get my but in gear to win the $20 gift certificate.  JK!!!

Albert Einstein once said “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”

Webster definition of practice: to do repeated exercises for proficiency

As a kid did you color inside the box or outside?  I loved coloring inside the box.  I am a perfectionist in some aspect and a free spirit in others.  But when it comes to coloring I love precision and doing things perfectly.  I will start all over again with a new coloring page if I mess up.

I carry that attitude into adulthood.  I am by far a perfectionist.

When it comes to exercise I thrive on consistency, being perfectionist and I love to practice.  It’s the only way to grow.  When I first started so many years ago I had no idea what “form” was let alone good form.  In weights class I had no idea what I was doing but because I want to be like the best of the best I watch the best looking people, fittest people and mimic them.  And I google the rest and watch youtube videos on form….then I go to class and practice some more.  I practice and I expect to see better results.

In kickboxing I was lost for the first three months but I continue to go, relentless and a bit insane but I expected different results and I got it.  Practice, consistency, thrive, desire all brought results

Then I added Step, same goes with Step I was a clutz but practice,drive took me to perfecting form.  Then Pilates, then yoga and the list goes on.  When I started running this year I practice, I tweak my run, watch my form and sure enough I picked up speed and got stronger and ran longer.  Can’t say I ran any time recently but I can whenever I want.

My point is, when it comes to exercise YOU HAVE TO BE CONSISTENT, YOU HAVE TO REPEAT REPEAT AND REPEAT YOUR PRACTICE.  It’s the only way you train your muscles, grow stronger, last longer and become better at it.

Like right now, I know which routine my hip hop class is on.  I youtube it, been watching it and practicing it.  Watch me, I go back to each class with better form then the week before.

Whenever you want to skip out your exercise routine, remember being insane about exercise - is a good thing! :)  Nothing wrong with doing it over and over again, result can be the same or it can be better.

Tuesday night I swam for 45 minutes.  Not sure if it’s the heat or what but I was only able to get in 20 minutes of jump rope and 20 min of weights.  I didn’t do any push-ups.

And Wednesday - gotta love my second favorite day of the week.  Both my favorite instructors are on board for Kickboxing and Pilates.

Last night I challenged Tina to do a walk and I was to do my set class which is a weight and cardio hour of fun.  I’m PMSing bad and everything irritated me - especially Rodney! LOL

I missed class and after ranting in the wildcat forum decided with Kerstin’s help to go swim and let it all out.  Well, lo and behold 20 minutes into my swim 5 kids and their parents decides to join - which kills my lap run.  I left, picked up the now found jump rope and went in the backyard and vented away.  And Kerstin - I did all 100 regular push-ups because I need to get my push-ups in if I didn’t do my weights.  Well 100 is no where near my 430 which is my best in a day but it’s a start back.  I didn’t skim on them girl - did them all with perfect form - just want I need to get back in my game.  ;)  Oh and got get it done with the right form.  No sagging mid section or girl or modified push-ups!

What I love about my jump rope - it has a clock and a counter.  The clock stops when I stop - very accurate.  I did a full 6 minutes which is not easy when I haven’t done it in years.  YAY!  It’s cheap lie $17 at a sports store.

Anyhow, I already told Rod today I’m going to both Kickboxing and Pilates.  No if’s and’s and I won’t feel guilty about my JIM TIME! :)  I need to do this for me!

As we were chillin’ last night he showed me a pick of this pretty Black girl with a cute butt - and we know Rod is a butt man; didn’t I tell you he buried my big butt - gave it a big funeral and all?  HEHE  Well, turns out she had butt implants!  Now I’ve seen it happen before, but this girl is beautiful with a cute bootay already - what’s the point of adding more?

Well, Mr. Rod who thinks breasts should be NATURAL - WAS FINE WITH A BUTT IMPLANT!  Go figure!  Whatever floats your boat I guess.  I just think butt implants, is a bit extreme but hey to each his own.

I sure won’t do it - oh no!  But I would mind getting my calves shaven off.  I hate my big calves.  It’s all blah!!!!

Like I said, whatever - to each her/his own.  Whatever makes you happy go for it!

LOL I can’t remember how many nights I fought but it’s over 21 nights now. .. no night time eating  not one morsel.  I’ve had temptation thrown in my face and I defeated each and every time.

Monday night was a good night.  I got home from the gym after an hour of hardcore kickboxing but skipped yoga, ate a yummy Khmer beef and celery sour soup with rice and took off to the movie for movie night.  We saw District 9…..ummm not for the faint of heart.  I snacked on Pumpkin seeds and ate just 1/3 of  the bag.  Oh had my fave some ice coffee.  Yummy.  In the past  I come home and eat!  But last night I came home, drank some water and went to bed.  Well, if I ate, I owe Rod $100 and why would I want to do that!

The saying is true, give yourself 3+ weeks to create a new habit.  It will stick, just don’t give up.

Tonight I’m going to Pilates and my first weight class in what seem like months!

I’ve decided recently, yesterday that I’m taking another step in self preservation.  If I have nothing nice to say, I’m not going to say it at all.  If something bothers me, I’m going to honest, not talk behind that person’s back - let them know exactly how I feel and respect that person enough to let it be.  I can not make anyone see something they fail to see.  I’m not captain save a ho’……the only person I can save is me. 

We all make choices, whatever decision I make I stand by it.  BUT I know that if 997 PEOPLE OUT OF 1000 sings the same song, aka - don’t write to the ex NANCY,not a good idea…….I take it and applied it to life. THANK YOU - I decided to let it be and let by gone be by gone.  I guess that is something that makes me different now.  I’m more then willing to take criticism and apply it to my life.  Does it hurt a bit?  Of course!!!!! But if I ask for advice, I better be able to deal and take it like a big girl!  What’s  the point of seeking advice from your peers if you have no intention of doing anything with it?  I won’t be a hypocrite!!!!!  I asked for help, I received it and I applied it.  

That’s why if someone bullsh** with me,  I refuse to indulge in it.  Self pity - I’m trying to get past my self pity days.  I’m done.  I just want to take action and keep pushing to the next venture, next obstacle - tackle that bullshi* and keep on going.  Life is not always beautiful but each of us is in charge of our happiness!  

I REFUSE TO BE A VICTIM YESTERDAY, TODAY OR TOMORROW!!  I did it in the past but no more!!!  I REFUSE TO BE A VICTIM ON THIS JOURNEY AND LIFE!  Too much time is spent playing woe is me games.  I have zero time to waste on my self pity.  I wipe my tears and keep fighting back!   A victim’s role is an easy role, a fighter’s role that’s hard because the chance of failing is very high.  I take 5 days of failure to one day of being a victim.  I’m done with it.  If it makes me seem harsh - oh well, it’s my life and I hold myself accountable for every action I make.  I won’t blame other’s for my shortcomings!  It’s not Rodney’s fault, not my mom’s but my own.  I’m a grown woman - why would I blame others for what I decide to do?  NO - I refuse to be a victim!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh WILDFIRE - she took control of me but I’m not going to delete this blog.  Gotta let it stand for what it is. 

YAY YAY YAY!!!! AHH, finally after a few days of stuffy, funky headache it’s all over.  I feel like my old self again.  Well, almost.

Tuesday I came home changed and got to the gym for a 2 mile run before my Pilates class.  First run in a couple of weeks.  OK, so the shoes bothered me a bit but I don’t care.  That Pilates class was a biaaat**!!!  She is tough but I’m glad she gave it to me.  I needed a big arse whooping.

I really thought I can do  another 1 or 2 miles after class but dannnnnnnnnnnnnnnng homegirl puts it on us.

I decided to rededicate to me time and quality food time.  I don’t have time to post on sparkspeople nor do I care at this point.  I already know where I am when it comes to my fat, protein, carbs and sodium range.  I also know how many calories I’m taking in most of the time.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO what did I eat today?

Early pre-weight routine food:

1 slice of bread w/ 2 tsp peanut butter, water

Breakfast:

2 cups cherries

6oz coffee w/ cacao bits and cream no sugar

2 cups yogi tea and goji berries

Snack: a few roasted unsalted nuts

Lunch:

large cucumber with skin and all

4 oz of chicken -grilled

2 cups of romaine

2 cups spinach with my Asian peanut Vinaigrette

Dinner:

1 grilled chicken thigh w/ 6 oz of rice

2 donut holes and 1/4 of a ham and cheese croissant

If I was to eat anything tonight it would be:

2 cups of spinach and 2 cups of romaine salad w/ the Asian Vinaigrette
I took Wednesday off to take care of errands.  I plan on doing another short run since I don’t like to overdo my runs.  Let’s aim for 2.5 miles.  Because in the evening it’s KICKBOXING AND PILATES!

YAY - so happy to feel good and positive about things again.

My honey is the best is he not?

Wanna hear how broke we are?

We so broke we have less then $2.00 in the checking account. Remember, Rod’s been dining on cup of noodles, peanut butter sandwiches, croissants and muffins. Instead of Gatorade he drinks water with lemonade mixes. He’s been a great trooper.

I get a direct deposit but we don’t know what time it hits our account.

My baby after the gym was starving and he wants to eat something big. Well, without money we decided to wait till 1am - hoping there is money in there. 1am comes I’m dead tired I want to sleep. He wakes me up - check the acct please, no money.

I fall asleep.

Tap tap honey….it’s 2am check please….. NO MONEY!!

2:30am honey - can you help me share this file from photobucket? I look at him like urrrrrr trying to SLEEP!!!!

I gave up and just fell into bed. Then I feel him on top of me - HONEY, DO YOU WANT A BIG OR SMALL WEDDING? WTH????????????

WHAT WEDDING? Our wedding? HUH?

At 2:30am - I actually don’t care what size the wedding is I just want to sleep. Now, what man in his right mind would ask a question to a growling, tired, sleep deprived, woman that question?

Then I’m hungry!! LOL

3am hits - I get up to check our acct - BINGO CHHHHAAA CHING..

ROD, BABY….GET UP - GO GET SOME FOOD NOW…..ROD ROD????? ROD???

“I’m tired”!!!

Men oh men!!!

I love him though!!

Yes - go ahead and laugh!!

I decided to privatize my letter to Stephanie. It was good to let it out.

Today KICKBOXING AND PILATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had so much fun on the last blog!! You guys made me so proud!  You all are so understanding!

I am taking a much deserved day off to have a 4 Day weekend!  I skipped the gym to hang out with my family and honey.  We took off for the casino for dinner at the best buffet.  I did very well.  Since I ate mainly fruits, veggies and protein during the day I had a lot of room for a buffet.  The great thing about a 5 star buffet - all you can eat crab legs, lobster and sushi and other stuff I won’t look at.  Oh!!! And chocolate covered strawberries!! I ate it all but never over did anything but the lobsters.

I ate a few fried shrimps - yummo, some rolls, and man of man like 6 lobsters!  They are small but heck - all you can eat lobster not so bad!  I did win many hands.  Even played Roulette but I came out even.  No win no gain except a good time!!!!

Well being that tomorrow is the start of my vacation, and if we don’t go to Vegas, I have 4 classes I’m doing!!! WHOO HOOO!!!  I have an 8am Lift Class, 9am Kickboxing class to follow.  Then I have Power Yoga at noon.  Then sleep and a final hour Pilates class at 7:30 pm.

In terms of food to prep for this, it’s about 300 cals of food at 6am and an energy bar 220  cals between classes.

Then Friday - whew, I can’t wait to do classes I never get to due to work!!!!!

Just one note, I Have an off the wall sense of humor.  95% of the time I joke a lot unless Miss Wildfire is in the house.  Don’t take me seriously, seriously.  If you do, you don’t know me at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All in all I plan to eat about 2500 calories Thursday to sustain all my classes!  Yep, good food good food!

Well, it’s early morning and no way can I catch up with all you fine men and women folks!!! Will do tomorrow.