Nancy’s Weight loss Journey 5 Yrs & Counting

Got that right!

As I told my buddy Jess, Tuesday was a great day! 

I stuck to my plan for my off exercise day which turned out to be more exercise then off.  I used www.mapmyrun.com to figure out where I can walk and what the distance is.  Great site!  Base on that I know that I can get 4 miles easy in during my 2 breaks and lunch.

I have to tell you, I really wasn’t in the mood to walk, but since I set a goal, I must achieve.  When it was time for the lunch walk of 2.10 miles, there was for a split second a thought to cut corners and cheat!! I thought to self, self - if you cheat and cut corners, who loses?  Not anyone but me! So I did all 4 miles and was very proud of myself.  And I added in some core work too by walking the edge of the side walk like it was a balance beam.

I got a text from Nygel before going home - girl, I’m subbing Cat’s yoga class - you coming?  Of course!! I was there faster then an Asian girl gulping down her rice (me).

I got there early so I did 15 minutes on the elliptical then, since I got bored waiting for yoga to start at 5:30, I ended up doing 20 minutes of the kickboxing class that was ending.  Giving self a high five - lots in for a NON-EXERCISE night!

Oh - and let’s not forget the 100 push-ups we did in yoga - tricep push-ups my favorite killers!!!!  So no weights Wednesday since I did push-ups and weights two days in a row.

Today it’s simple kickboxing and pilates!! WHOO HOOOOO!!! Gotta love the rush!

I’m in a much better mood.  Broke or not, I just have to deal with all the lemons rolling my way.  Anyone want some lemonade?  Sugar too?  LOL!!!!!!

I had a wonderful relaxing weekend.

NO I LIED!!!!

Saturday was great.  Rod worked on the Lexus and I went to a different gym for kickboxing and weights.  I had a great class.  Not my usual people and they don’t bring the same kind of intensity but I made my workout work nonetheless.  Then I did weights and came home and very sore since then.

My cousin came by in the evening and we made girl’s night out at the casino.  It took every ounce of self control to NOT give more then the $60 I lost.  Truth be told, I was itching to get more money and play and play.  But I kept thinking, I have Thanksgiving coming up, Christmas presents for the kids.  I can’t afford to keep throwing money into the casino inferno.   While my cousin took more money out to play,  I  held back and just chilled with her.  I’m so glad I resisted!

Came home at 4am and ate a very early breakfast since I didn’t wake up till noon, it worked out ok.  So wildcats, there I go eating in the middle of night/morning again.  SO mad but hey, I was up all night.  :(  :(  Still fighting though - tonight I hope to make it. 

Sunday, Rod and I can’t seem to get on the same page on just about everything.  I say one thing, he hear something else. Well,it goes both ways, but man, it just go to me today.  I tried to be understanding, but when I know I said A and he heard B, then we argue, no, I’m not ok with it.  Movie night was the movie 2012.  Really good movie to watch like a date night movie.  But the arguing afterward killed the mood a bit.  BOOOO HOOOOO HOOOOO!

Let’s talk about the stink!! OH MY GOD - My fart stinks like shi*!! I mean it smells bad.  The healthier I eat the worse the smells get.  I was hoping as my body adapt and after eating healthy pretty much for over a year now, I thought it would get better.  But it’s not.  The smell just gets worse and worse.  I even used some gas pills, doesn’t work on me.  I mean, it smells worse the Rod’s stuff.

Downside to eating healthy and cleaner for me, the constant gas passing.  The constant running out of the room to pass gas and the constant bathroom breaks from all the water I drink.  At night it’s the worse because I hate waking in the middle of the night to pass gas. Rod would say go ahead and let it go, but when it just takes over the room, he stopped suggesting it and relieved I leave to do the do.

Today it’s back to my basic - eating clean with lots of fruits, veggies, beans, chicken, water, green tea and water.  3000 calories because I have kickboxing, Step and upper body weights - 3 hours of fun fun fun!!!!!

Been “lost” with everything for the past few days.  I wanted to work out so bad but sat out for more days then I care to count.  I even canceled my girl date with Nygel Saturday.  We are going out Friday night dancing - whoo hoooo!

I hate being home the last couple of days.  I feel so unmotivated and unproductive.  I didn’t do much other then being in bed relaxing.  Rodeny wouldn’t let me go to the gym or do anything.  I now think I really do have adult ADD.  I can’t sit still for more then a few hours at a time.

I’ve been taking some time away from buddyslim to focus on my family and friends.  It’s great to be here, but the past few months, this place is so dead.

I wonder, why am I really here?  Why do I bother to read people’s blogs?  I mean, most people come for a few days, a few weeks, maybe a month or so and boom, they gone. Then some people act like you don’t exist.  While other people, turned their backs on you and you don’t even know why.  Whatever!  I’m not going to waste another second wondering why people stop supporting me.  No longer my issue.

Other then the wildcat’s forum…….I’m not that interested in much here anymore.  I just can’t be motivated to give people hi five when they ignore me.  Being real right now.

Honestly, I feel a lost of motivation to be here.  I don’t feel the energy, the love, the comittment that I saw many months, even a year ago.  Yes, as MJ noted, there are a number of loyal people here, other then that, I’m having trouble staying motivated to motivate people.

This used to never be a problem.  Come good days or bad, I love being here, reading up, getting to know people.

I am going to refocus on my personal journey and that of my loyal friends and my cats.  Anyone else, hey, what goes around comes around you know.  And trust me, I’m not speaking to anyone personally, I’m just stating that I only want to focus on people who supports me back.

I’m over being sick.  I’m back to work and to my routine with a vengence.  I have nearly 2 months left now before my 5 yr anniversary.  This day is making me happy and sick in the stomach at the same time.  ARRRGHHHHHH I really want to make my goal!!!!!!

Monday I’m going to scale back just a bit.  I’m eating about 1500 calories before the gym.  NO 3 hours.  Just Kickboxing then weights.  2 hours total.  I promise Rod I’m taking the Step class out of the routine.

What happens when you take two people - one don’t drink often and the other drinks mainly beer?  CORKSCREWLESS PEOPLE!  LOL And the thing is I’m too cheap - yes I said it, I’m tooooooo cheap to buy one.

Few options:

1. We don’t drink our red wine (ROD gets no booooootay)

2.  Rod breaks the bottle while he attempts to open the bottle

3.  We drink Red Wine with some cork bits floating around….yummmy extra fiber

4. We push the cork down into the bottle and we are good to go.

GHETTOOO! That’s us.  We don’t drink enough red wine to warrant buying a corkscrew.  Yep he pushed the cork down cursing my name the whole way and then said to me, now we have to drink it all because we have nothing to close it with.  Well, the first glass made me sick and I threw up some of my dinner.  Not sure why I reacted badly to it.

I am super super sore from my neck down.  Every muscle group screams my name from Monday’s nearly 3 hours of cardio and weights.  I love love love the soreness.

I came home, I was sooooo tired I fell asleep and missed my yoga class.

Thus today it’s all about getting kickboxing and pilates in.  I will do some upper body but very very light weights.  I know that the pilates class will be a ballet/pilates fusion class so my arms will be completely sore from it.

I’m planning on eating a lot of food again - around 1900 calories before class and 2900 calories for the day.  Now, I’m not sure what went wrong Monday, but the Protein shake I bought which was 420 calories, didn’t do it’s job.  HummmphFFF.

I guess I have to stick to a new food plan:

Breakfast: 3 egg whites, 2 cups of steel cut oats with goji berries, 1/2 can of kidney beans

Snack: 2 cups frozen strawberries with Greek nonfat yogurt, 1 pear

Lunch: 1 grilled chicken thigh, sun dried tomatoes, hummus and  rye crispbread, 1fruit smoothie

Snack: 1 banana, 1 coleslaw with peanuts and my Trader Joe’s Vinaigrette

1 energy bar and Powerade zero calories for electrolytes.

Holly and those interested, I had  an OK time with Zumba on Friday.  I certainly prefer HIP HOP but you know what, I need to suck it up and find the positives in Zumba.  Holly, I think it’s all Lana.  I think she’s not bringing out the big guns since it’s our first official Zumba class.   I do have another option though, should Zumba not work, I will get off work early and take the Hula class before kickboxing.  I will work with it and hopefully learn to love it.  I promise myself that much.  I won’t give up on Zumba just yet.

3 1 0 0  yep  taking it to 3100 calories.

I’m doing something new again this week.  I’m adding a short 45 minutes upper body weights session in between kickboxing and Step.  I am never a fan of doing cardio, weights then cardio.  I prefer weights, cardio and cardio.  BUT here I have no choice.  I’m limited to the class schedule and my work schedule.  Will make due and use my time wisely. 

2.45 hours of some pure un-adultured orgasmic gym love.   LOL!!

MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK IS MONDAY!!!  I GET TO EAT TONS AND TONS OF FOOD.  Most of the time I can’t finish my food listed because my body can’t digest it fast enough.  I learned to start my eating right and 8am,when I get to work and something every 30 to 40 minutes.  It worked last week.

Food:
3 egg whites hard boiled
1/3 cup of kidney beans
1 pear
Coffee with cream
2 cups of strawberries with Greek plain nonfat yogurt

Snack:
1 cup of steel cut oats with goji berries

Lunch:
Grilled chicken leg quarters in Chinese slaw salad with roasted peanuts and my Asian Vinaigrette dressing
Sun dried tomatoe and hummus on toasted rye crispbread

Snack:
2 banana
1 Naked Juice smoothie

And other food to be determined.

Water around 145 oz

1 Powerade zero calorie drink for electrolytes

1 energy bar between classes

IPOD - CHECK - GOT SOME NEW MUSIC HOOKED UP!!!!

BTW, I HAD TO LAUGH MY ASS OFF - SOME WANNA BE SPAMMER IS SELLING US THE BENEFITS OF WEIGHTLOSS DRUGS.  I LAUGH AS I WALK AWAY WITH MY MONEY IN MY POCKET.  HAHA!!

As I’m doing my push-ups this evening this thought plays in my head.  hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm what’s my dream weight and size?  My dream weight would be 120 lbs and a size 4 (but is it possible to be both LOL)?? As you can tell I’ve never been 120 or a size 4.

BUT THEN REALITY SETS IN!! Ohhhhhhhhhhh nooooo girly girl, not for me.  I realize that ideally my goal weight is about 135 or 140 - something that is so close I can almost taste it but so far away.  My size would be a 5/7.  That is just about where I’m at now.  Although with my broad shoulders I can fit all mediums and a few small.

I passed by Rod and for once he said, honey your arms shrunk a bit!!! SCORE!! LOL small victories!

I didn’t sleep a lot last night. Too many thoughts in my head.  That and a long day added up to  175 regular push-ups at home and I’m in the process of doing weights, pure weights.  No JIM date.

BUT TOMORROW BACK TO EATING!!! HAHAHA eating eating eating to my hearts content.  I already have my meals planned out.  I can get away with 1900 calories and do kickboxing and pilates.  Although Pilates will kick my butt it’s Ballet/Pilates.

Why is it I take such pleasure in the little things in life?  I do.  I get soooo excited about my brand new day!!

What an exhausting exhausting day!!!!

Rod and I, I swear we are like one soul.  Our 2nd yr anniversary is coming in 3 days and we are doing better then ever.  HE decided to relive our first date again.  So we rent Transformer, Dinner and a walk on the beach at sunrise.  How cool is that?  It’s a good thing there’s a romantic soul in this relationship.

Today we went on a open call with a modeling agency.  He got the initial interview and a second one tomorrow.  She said “tighter pants but not too tight”.  My honey wants me to go again tomorrow but I have this thing call work.

Yesterday I did my Kickboxing and Pilates class!  Yes Yes - all that food I ate was well worth it.  I came home beat.  I loved loved it!

Today no exercise because I was sooo busy.

But tomorrow it’s back to My kickboxing and hip hop class!  I am so loving my Fridays.  I’m loving my 2000 calories before hitting the gym.  It gives me a ton of energy and everything I need to just kick it up to another level.

For lunch/late eating I had a pancake, bacon, egg white and sausage meal at Denny’s.  It’s all good because it works right into my calorie requirement for the day.

I have a bit more to eat.  And since I’m doing the WILDCAT Biggest Loser Challenge I need to get my but in gear to win the $20 gift certificate.  JK!!!

October will be 4 months till my 5 yr anniversary of this journey.  I’m ready to pee on myself.  I swear, this body of mine is not working with me to let go of any weight.  Well, let’s be real, I have not been on a scale for almost 3 weeks.  I choose not to get on one.  But I am freaking out as I always do. 

Funny thing is at the end of January My sweet buddy Tina and I are meeting up for the first time in Vegas.  All I want is to lose the 8 lbs I gained in the last month and another 10.

You know, it’s so not easy to lose the last 15 lbs.  I’ve tried about everything  in terms of eating and exercising - mixing it up  and you know, I can get a bit frustrated with it all.  I ate less, I zigzag my calories, I increased my calories…….LOL I need to keep trying!

My honey, said to me yesterday, babe, no matter what you weigh, I will always love you!  But as you know, in his secret fantasy world he would love for me to be at 180 lbs or heavier.  I know many people would be happy to have a loved one wants them to gain weight but not me.

Well, as our team THE WILDCATS take on it’s second win this week, I’m re-focusing on me.  And as  I blogged yesterday, I’m not going to focus on the bad energy I feel here from certain people who are strangers to me.  I am going to refocus on my health, my friends and my family.

Stress is not good for the body, the mind or my health.  Nor is lack of sleep!  I need to work on these two facts and I know somewhere along the way a couple of lbs may drop.

Today I plan on eating 2000 calories BEFORE hitting the gym for kickboxing and yoga.  AND I may stay for the Step class.  I think I can do it! :)  If I take it up to 2500 calories I can stay for all three classes!  It’s been almost 4 months since I did any 3 back to back but I’m ready to do it again!

Lana, my hip hop instructor emailed us the color for our outfit BLUE!!! I’m so blued out - I have my top, my shoes which is black with blue stripes, my blue bandana and my cap!  She wants to film us for youtube again!!!! Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll I have to see what the clip looks like first.  I would hate to send the link and I look like a fool!! Remember I this is only my second months into hip hop so I’m still learning the moves and adding my own style.  I must must must beat at least 1500 calories for kickboxing and hip hop.

I want to kick ASSSSSS!!!!  I want to drip drip with sweat!  I love love to sweat.  I love sweat between my toes, I love my sweaty and wet socks, I love my sweaty top, I love my sweaty crotch………………. I love sweating dripping of my hair and hitting the ground all around me!! It’s all a sign of a good workout.

Not talking about the sweat from a hot room, but sweat I earned!! I earned my sweat and love to bask in it.

Soooooooooooooo anyone with me on sweating a bit today?

SWEAT SWEAT SWEAT IT OUT!!!!!  Oh and the stink that comes from a great work out…………..peeeeee uuuuuuuu but I love it!!!  I heart the dirty dirty of a good hot calorie burning heart pumping two hours of fun!!! OK, better not get sooo excited I can’t work. 

I just want to say, I’m NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT BURNT OUT ON BUDDYSLIM!  I just needed some help and finally I got some recently from a dear friend.  I need aid and she provided it.  Sometimes people don’t realize how much effort it takes to keep something like a forum going strong.  It doesn’t happen on its own.  It takes a lot of nurturing, dedication and being a good and very intuitive leader.  I needed help and I got it!! Thanks girl!!!!!

As far as buddyslim and the “slowness or lack of participation” we all felt, I find that there is a little fire burning under all of us!!! Keep it up guys!  Don’t wait for your peer to be active, YOU BE ACTIVE AND BE THERE FOR OTHERS!!!

I’m fast approaching my 5 yr anniversary of the first day of my journey.  I can’t believe the number!  The closer it gets the more anxious I become.

Why?  Because I feel like I’ve come far but I still need to address so many other issues.

Well, aside from me, I would like to know, where do each of my buddyslimmers see themselves in 5 yrs time?

1.  Met “Ultimate” goal with weight and health

2.  Almost there

3. Still struggling and maintaining

4.  No where near goal

5.  Heavier and bigger then the day you started

6.  Other…………can’t think of more LOL

Sometimes we get caught up in the daily grind and focus on the small stuff.  I do that all the time.  Before I know it months past, and a few yrs passed.  I’m like, where did all this time go?

Honestly, 5 yrs ago I just knew I wanted to be hot at 30 yrs old.  Oh my when I was in my 20’s,  30 is downhill for youth you know!!  LOL If only I knew. It gets better.  I’m younger and better then I was in all my 20’s. 

Think about your goals, think about how you are going to meet them.

Baby steps…..leads to big steps…leads to days, months and years.  REMEMBER ONLY 1 IN 5 LOSES WEIGHT AND KEEPS IT OFF FOR MORE THEN 5 YRS!

I want to see you at your best in 5 yrs and longer.  It starts  - TODAY!

I better get ready with the food eating so I can go to kickboxing in a couple hours.