Khmerbeauty 1 Life 1 Destiny

What happens when you take two people - one don’t drink often and the other drinks mainly beer?  CORKSCREWLESS PEOPLE!  LOL And the thing is I’m too cheap - yes I said it, I’m tooooooo cheap to buy one.

Few options:

1. We don’t drink our red wine (ROD gets no booooootay)

2.  Rod breaks the bottle while he attempts to open the bottle

3.  We drink Red Wine with some cork bits floating around….yummmy extra fiber

4. We push the cork down into the bottle and we are good to go.

GHETTOOO! That’s us.  We don’t drink enough red wine to warrant buying a corkscrew.  Yep he pushed the cork down cursing my name the whole way and then said to me, now we have to drink it all because we have nothing to close it with.  Well, the first glass made me sick and I threw up some of my dinner.  Not sure why I reacted badly to it.

I am super super sore from my neck down.  Every muscle group screams my name from Monday’s nearly 3 hours of cardio and weights.  I love love love the soreness.

I came home, I was sooooo tired I fell asleep and missed my yoga class.

Thus today it’s all about getting kickboxing and pilates in.  I will do some upper body but very very light weights.  I know that the pilates class will be a ballet/pilates fusion class so my arms will be completely sore from it.

I’m planning on eating a lot of food again - around 1900 calories before class and 2900 calories for the day.  Now, I’m not sure what went wrong Monday, but the Protein shake I bought which was 420 calories, didn’t do it’s job.  HummmphFFF.

I guess I have to stick to a new food plan:

Breakfast: 3 egg whites, 2 cups of steel cut oats with goji berries, 1/2 can of kidney beans

Snack: 2 cups frozen strawberries with Greek nonfat yogurt, 1 pear

Lunch: 1 grilled chicken thigh, sun dried tomatoes, hummus and  rye crispbread, 1fruit smoothie

Snack: 1 banana, 1 coleslaw with peanuts and my Trader Joe’s Vinaigrette

1 energy bar and Powerade zero calories for electrolytes.

Holly and those interested, I had  an OK time with Zumba on Friday.  I certainly prefer HIP HOP but you know what, I need to suck it up and find the positives in Zumba.  Holly, I think it’s all Lana.  I think she’s not bringing out the big guns since it’s our first official Zumba class.   I do have another option though, should Zumba not work, I will get off work early and take the Hula class before kickboxing.  I will work with it and hopefully learn to love it.  I promise myself that much.  I won’t give up on Zumba just yet.

3 1 0 0  yep  taking it to 3100 calories.

I’m doing something new again this week.  I’m adding a short 45 minutes upper body weights session in between kickboxing and Step.  I am never a fan of doing cardio, weights then cardio.  I prefer weights, cardio and cardio.  BUT here I have no choice.  I’m limited to the class schedule and my work schedule.  Will make due and use my time wisely. 

2.45 hours of some pure un-adultured orgasmic gym love.   LOL!!

MY FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK IS MONDAY!!!  I GET TO EAT TONS AND TONS OF FOOD.  Most of the time I can’t finish my food listed because my body can’t digest it fast enough.  I learned to start my eating right and 8am,when I get to work and something every 30 to 40 minutes.  It worked last week.

Food:
3 egg whites hard boiled
1/3 cup of kidney beans
1 pear
Coffee with cream
2 cups of strawberries with Greek plain nonfat yogurt

Snack:
1 cup of steel cut oats with goji berries

Lunch:
Grilled chicken leg quarters in Chinese slaw salad with roasted peanuts and my Asian Vinaigrette dressing
Sun dried tomatoe and hummus on toasted rye crispbread

Snack:
2 banana
1 Naked Juice smoothie

And other food to be determined.

Water around 145 oz

1 Powerade zero calorie drink for electrolytes

1 energy bar between classes

IPOD - CHECK - GOT SOME NEW MUSIC HOOKED UP!!!!

BTW, I HAD TO LAUGH MY ASS OFF - SOME WANNA BE SPAMMER IS SELLING US THE BENEFITS OF WEIGHTLOSS DRUGS.  I LAUGH AS I WALK AWAY WITH MY MONEY IN MY POCKET.  HAHA!!

As I’m doing my push-ups this evening this thought plays in my head.  hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm what’s my dream weight and size?  My dream weight would be 120 lbs and a size 4 (but is it possible to be both LOL)?? As you can tell I’ve never been 120 or a size 4.

BUT THEN REALITY SETS IN!! Ohhhhhhhhhhh nooooo girly girl, not for me.  I realize that ideally my goal weight is about 135 or 140 - something that is so close I can almost taste it but so far away.  My size would be a 5/7.  That is just about where I’m at now.  Although with my broad shoulders I can fit all mediums and a few small.

I passed by Rod and for once he said, honey your arms shrunk a bit!!! SCORE!! LOL small victories!

I didn’t sleep a lot last night. Too many thoughts in my head.  That and a long day added up to  175 regular push-ups at home and I’m in the process of doing weights, pure weights.  No JIM date.

BUT TOMORROW BACK TO EATING!!! HAHAHA eating eating eating to my hearts content.  I already have my meals planned out.  I can get away with 1900 calories and do kickboxing and pilates.  Although Pilates will kick my butt it’s Ballet/Pilates.

Why is it I take such pleasure in the little things in life?  I do.  I get soooo excited about my brand new day!!

What an exhausting exhausting day!!!!

Rod and I, I swear we are like one soul.  Our 2nd yr anniversary is coming in 3 days and we are doing better then ever.  HE decided to relive our first date again.  So we rent Transformer, Dinner and a walk on the beach at sunrise.  How cool is that?  It’s a good thing there’s a romantic soul in this relationship.

Today we went on a open call with a modeling agency.  He got the initial interview and a second one tomorrow.  She said “tighter pants but not too tight”.  My honey wants me to go again tomorrow but I have this thing call work.

Yesterday I did my Kickboxing and Pilates class!  Yes Yes - all that food I ate was well worth it.  I came home beat.  I loved loved it!

Today no exercise because I was sooo busy.

But tomorrow it’s back to My kickboxing and hip hop class!  I am so loving my Fridays.  I’m loving my 2000 calories before hitting the gym.  It gives me a ton of energy and everything I need to just kick it up to another level.

For lunch/late eating I had a pancake, bacon, egg white and sausage meal at Denny’s.  It’s all good because it works right into my calorie requirement for the day.

I have a bit more to eat.  And since I’m doing the WILDCAT Biggest Loser Challenge I need to get my but in gear to win the $20 gift certificate.  JK!!!

October will be 4 months till my 5 yr anniversary of this journey.  I’m ready to pee on myself.  I swear, this body of mine is not working with me to let go of any weight.  Well, let’s be real, I have not been on a scale for almost 3 weeks.  I choose not to get on one.  But I am freaking out as I always do. 

Funny thing is at the end of January My sweet buddy Tina and I are meeting up for the first time in Vegas.  All I want is to lose the 8 lbs I gained in the last month and another 10.

You know, it’s so not easy to lose the last 15 lbs.  I’ve tried about everything  in terms of eating and exercising - mixing it up  and you know, I can get a bit frustrated with it all.  I ate less, I zigzag my calories, I increased my calories…….LOL I need to keep trying!

My honey, said to me yesterday, babe, no matter what you weigh, I will always love you!  But as you know, in his secret fantasy world he would love for me to be at 180 lbs or heavier.  I know many people would be happy to have a loved one wants them to gain weight but not me.

Well, as our team THE WILDCATS take on it’s second win this week, I’m re-focusing on me.  And as  I blogged yesterday, I’m not going to focus on the bad energy I feel here from certain people who are strangers to me.  I am going to refocus on my health, my friends and my family.

Stress is not good for the body, the mind or my health.  Nor is lack of sleep!  I need to work on these two facts and I know somewhere along the way a couple of lbs may drop.

Today I plan on eating 2000 calories BEFORE hitting the gym for kickboxing and yoga.  AND I may stay for the Step class.  I think I can do it! :)  If I take it up to 2500 calories I can stay for all three classes!  It’s been almost 4 months since I did any 3 back to back but I’m ready to do it again!

Lana, my hip hop instructor emailed us the color for our outfit BLUE!!! I’m so blued out - I have my top, my shoes which is black with blue stripes, my blue bandana and my cap!  She wants to film us for youtube again!!!! Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll I have to see what the clip looks like first.  I would hate to send the link and I look like a fool!! Remember I this is only my second months into hip hop so I’m still learning the moves and adding my own style.  I must must must beat at least 1500 calories for kickboxing and hip hop.

I want to kick ASSSSSS!!!!  I want to drip drip with sweat!  I love love to sweat.  I love sweat between my toes, I love my sweaty and wet socks, I love my sweaty top, I love my sweaty crotch………………. I love sweating dripping of my hair and hitting the ground all around me!! It’s all a sign of a good workout.

Not talking about the sweat from a hot room, but sweat I earned!! I earned my sweat and love to bask in it.

Soooooooooooooo anyone with me on sweating a bit today?

SWEAT SWEAT SWEAT IT OUT!!!!!  Oh and the stink that comes from a great work out…………..peeeeee uuuuuuuu but I love it!!!  I heart the dirty dirty of a good hot calorie burning heart pumping two hours of fun!!! OK, better not get sooo excited I can’t work. 

I just want to say, I’m NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT BURNT OUT ON BUDDYSLIM!  I just needed some help and finally I got some recently from a dear friend.  I need aid and she provided it.  Sometimes people don’t realize how much effort it takes to keep something like a forum going strong.  It doesn’t happen on its own.  It takes a lot of nurturing, dedication and being a good and very intuitive leader.  I needed help and I got it!! Thanks girl!!!!!

As far as buddyslim and the “slowness or lack of participation” we all felt, I find that there is a little fire burning under all of us!!! Keep it up guys!  Don’t wait for your peer to be active, YOU BE ACTIVE AND BE THERE FOR OTHERS!!!

I’m fast approaching my 5 yr anniversary of the first day of my journey.  I can’t believe the number!  The closer it gets the more anxious I become.

Why?  Because I feel like I’ve come far but I still need to address so many other issues.

Well, aside from me, I would like to know, where do each of my buddyslimmers see themselves in 5 yrs time?

1.  Met “Ultimate” goal with weight and health

2.  Almost there

3. Still struggling and maintaining

4.  No where near goal

5.  Heavier and bigger then the day you started

6.  Other…………can’t think of more LOL

Sometimes we get caught up in the daily grind and focus on the small stuff.  I do that all the time.  Before I know it months past, and a few yrs passed.  I’m like, where did all this time go?

Honestly, 5 yrs ago I just knew I wanted to be hot at 30 yrs old.  Oh my when I was in my 20’s,  30 is downhill for youth you know!!  LOL If only I knew. It gets better.  I’m younger and better then I was in all my 20’s. 

Think about your goals, think about how you are going to meet them.

Baby steps…..leads to big steps…leads to days, months and years.  REMEMBER ONLY 1 IN 5 LOSES WEIGHT AND KEEPS IT OFF FOR MORE THEN 5 YRS!

I want to see you at your best in 5 yrs and longer.  It starts  - TODAY!

I better get ready with the food eating so I can go to kickboxing in a couple hours.

Albert Einstein once said “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”

Webster definition of practice: to do repeated exercises for proficiency

As a kid did you color inside the box or outside?  I loved coloring inside the box.  I am a perfectionist in some aspect and a free spirit in others.  But when it comes to coloring I love precision and doing things perfectly.  I will start all over again with a new coloring page if I mess up.

I carry that attitude into adulthood.  I am by far a perfectionist.

When it comes to exercise I thrive on consistency, being perfectionist and I love to practice.  It’s the only way to grow.  When I first started so many years ago I had no idea what “form” was let alone good form.  In weights class I had no idea what I was doing but because I want to be like the best of the best I watch the best looking people, fittest people and mimic them.  And I google the rest and watch youtube videos on form….then I go to class and practice some more.  I practice and I expect to see better results.

In kickboxing I was lost for the first three months but I continue to go, relentless and a bit insane but I expected different results and I got it.  Practice, consistency, thrive, desire all brought results

Then I added Step, same goes with Step I was a clutz but practice,drive took me to perfecting form.  Then Pilates, then yoga and the list goes on.  When I started running this year I practice, I tweak my run, watch my form and sure enough I picked up speed and got stronger and ran longer.  Can’t say I ran any time recently but I can whenever I want.

My point is, when it comes to exercise YOU HAVE TO BE CONSISTENT, YOU HAVE TO REPEAT REPEAT AND REPEAT YOUR PRACTICE.  It’s the only way you train your muscles, grow stronger, last longer and become better at it.

Like right now, I know which routine my hip hop class is on.  I youtube it, been watching it and practicing it.  Watch me, I go back to each class with better form then the week before.

Whenever you want to skip out your exercise routine, remember being insane about exercise - is a good thing! :)  Nothing wrong with doing it over and over again, result can be the same or it can be better.

Tuesday night I swam for 45 minutes.  Not sure if it’s the heat or what but I was only able to get in 20 minutes of jump rope and 20 min of weights.  I didn’t do any push-ups.

And Wednesday - gotta love my second favorite day of the week.  Both my favorite instructors are on board for Kickboxing and Pilates.

Recently, as I know my buddy Kerstin wrote about it and I’ve seen numerous times, people keeps asking “what about me?”  I did my part, I participated and I did what I can for buddyslim, how come I’m not getting some back?

Honestly, and I can’t speak for ANYONE, NO ONE, other then myself.  I believe that the last few months has been slow in terms of support.  But you know, as the saying goes, you get what you put in!!!!!

And one of the reasons why I started taking some time off from this site.  At least 1 day a week.  I would spend hours and hours on end here, supporting as many blogs as I can and I was involved in more then 6 forums at a time.

BLOGS SUPPORT Then and Now

What is different for blog support for me.

I used to and still read the daily blogger’s blog like Holly, Becky, Kerstin, Kama, Marie, Dagny, Jacki’s, Lace is back to it, Jessica, Jessie, Nisey, Loni, Poetry, Tina’s…etc and so many others.

But along the way I notice that there are some people who consistently supports me.  YOU Can call it a CLIQUE if you want!  I hear it all the time.  The truth is they are the same people who’s I supported from the beginning AND THEY ALWAYS SUPPORTED ME!  I always support old members who return and stay and I support new blogs.

You get to know these people.  Like how RB now has a name Becky.  And Holly’s struggle with food addiction such as mine and I love seeing new pics of Dagny as she shrinks.  Yes, I know a lot about them.  You can’t take that away from us!!!  We are going to be there for one another just like we have in the past.  Yes, we don’t always see eye to eye on issues, but hey, we respect each other and will always be there for one another.

Blogging these days

I find that I can spend ALL my time supporting some people and they don’t care to even say hi or even get to know me.  Now, why should I bother getting to know more about them?  Why?  They don’t care about me!  It’s all about give and take.  Don’t expect me to read 15 of your blogs and say hi to you and you can’t say hi to me once!  Therefore, I started skipping out on their blogs just like they do mine!  Sad but the truth for me at least.

New bloggers - I support as many  new buddyslimmers and new bloggers as I can.  Some people I hit it off with and some I don’t.  That’s just how it rolls.

Forums

I used to be involved in a lot of forums but as I noted before, I decided it’s in my best interest to have a life outside of buddyslim.  Therefore I needed to cut out many forums and thank you forum buddies for taking it in stride.  The one and only forum I’m committed to is the WILDCATS, well, it’s simple - they are my friends and my team mates.  They have always been there for me.  As I support them as team leader it is also my obligation to support their journal/blog as I do now.

My conclusion to all this, many people stay and many people leave and come back.  It’s easier to stick with those who are dedicated to this lifestyle and makes buddyslim a second home.  Those people, for the exception of a few, I stick with because I am a dedicated and loyal friend.

Whew!!! What a mouthful!  You don’t have to agree with me.  But if you do say anything negative, I’m deleting.  My journal - it’s all about support for me!  As I do yours!  Honestly, if you don’t like me or don’t care to get to know me, then don’t expect for me to do the same.  This is my thoughts and my thoughts only.

Monday night - it’s all about my crew for kickboxing and yoga!!!!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!!

Oh, and for those who wants to see pics from Rod’s B-day at V20: It was very hot! LITERALLY!!!

Last night I challenged Tina to do a walk and I was to do my set class which is a weight and cardio hour of fun.  I’m PMSing bad and everything irritated me - especially Rodney! LOL

I missed class and after ranting in the wildcat forum decided with Kerstin’s help to go swim and let it all out.  Well, lo and behold 20 minutes into my swim 5 kids and their parents decides to join - which kills my lap run.  I left, picked up the now found jump rope and went in the backyard and vented away.  And Kerstin - I did all 100 regular push-ups because I need to get my push-ups in if I didn’t do my weights.  Well 100 is no where near my 430 which is my best in a day but it’s a start back.  I didn’t skim on them girl - did them all with perfect form - just want I need to get back in my game.  ;)  Oh and got get it done with the right form.  No sagging mid section or girl or modified push-ups!

What I love about my jump rope - it has a clock and a counter.  The clock stops when I stop - very accurate.  I did a full 6 minutes which is not easy when I haven’t done it in years.  YAY!  It’s cheap lie $17 at a sports store.

Anyhow, I already told Rod today I’m going to both Kickboxing and Pilates.  No if’s and’s and I won’t feel guilty about my JIM TIME! :)  I need to do this for me!

As we were chillin’ last night he showed me a pick of this pretty Black girl with a cute butt - and we know Rod is a butt man; didn’t I tell you he buried my big butt - gave it a big funeral and all?  HEHE  Well, turns out she had butt implants!  Now I’ve seen it happen before, but this girl is beautiful with a cute bootay already - what’s the point of adding more?

Well, Mr. Rod who thinks breasts should be NATURAL - WAS FINE WITH A BUTT IMPLANT!  Go figure!  Whatever floats your boat I guess.  I just think butt implants, is a bit extreme but hey to each his own.

I sure won’t do it - oh no!  But I would mind getting my calves shaven off.  I hate my big calves.  It’s all blah!!!!

Like I said, whatever - to each her/his own.  Whatever makes you happy go for it!