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Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm This morning I set a simple goal = 5K walk in the morning and 5K run in the evening.

After much thought I decided to make this an exercise “off” day because I have a lot of exercise planned for the next 4 days.  On top of that my shoulders is still a little sore, nothing bad because I watched my form and did the Pilates workout correctly.  It’s from doing a very good session with a very good instructor.  Soreness tells me I did it spot on.

However, I’m am a worry wort.  I prefer to baby my body versus pushing.  Therefore no weights today and probably tomorrow.  With that said, the run will have to wait too for tomorrow.

You know me, I won’t take anything standing up - literally.  Being this is an off exercise day I did yep 10 MILES OF WALKING!   All before , during and on my last break.  I don’t consider walking an exercise for me because I don’t sweat like I would like say running or kickboxing or step.

What did today and a lot of my unconventional exercise days taught me?  NO EXCUSES!!! I refuse to give myself an excuse not to exercise.

Time running short?  Make time for it…, no equipment - WALK!  Do push-ups! Do something!

I refuse to play the I have no time game.  If you don’t make time for your body, you won’t get what you want out of it.  Enough said.

Oh, and this is me venting again….not talking about anyone in particular.  Just me telling myself how it’s done in Nancy’s world.

Just like your food, you have to know how to zig zag your exercise to get the most out of it.  Never stalemate your workouts!

Yes, don’t ever settle!! Settle leads to failure.  Set goals and go into overdrive and get it in but also be mindful of your body.

Food wise I barely made the 1680 minimum.  I packed some roasted corn on the cob for the movies.  We are going to see Angels and Demons.  Won’t be surprise if I hit my 2000 mark today.  Even so, that will keep me in the right calorie range.

Saturday morning, ok, gotta really do my 5K run unless my shoulder is good then I do weights and yoga.

Already Sparkspeople forces me to change my exercise “goal” to meet my real exercise.  Thus throwing me into a different and higher calorie range. YAY!!! More food and it’s only Wednesday.  I love it.  It takes me right back to the 1700-2100 calorie range.  I ate a lot today but you know what?  For once I’m not too hungry and didn’t even make the minimum.

What can I say? Nygel is back and in charge!  She whipped me in kickboxing and the sub in Pilates worked my core!  WHOOO YAHH.

Not only that, I am going to sleep early, get up at 4:30 am to eat some hard boiled egg whites and rice.  Then to the gym at 6am for an hour of intensive interval training.  BOSU love is hot!  The only thing left to do Thursday is get some walking in, just 3 miles - nothing hard at work on my lunch and breaks.

Blaithin, I plan on getting a run in on Friday.  Just a 5K.  I should be good for that.  Sunday I’m going to attempt my second 10K run!

There’s a lot of growth on the site. WELCOME WELCOME!  In my opinion, one of the worse thing to do is keep putting this off.  Tomorrow will always be there.  Start now!  As I told a new friend, don’t wait on others!! WHY?  This is your body!  Not there’s.  That goes for the hubby, the boyfriend, the friend next door or the girl etc.  You can’t expect others to help you on this journey.  Start as Michael Jackson sung, with the woman in the mirror.  You have to get up and exercise!  You have to eat right!  You have to start cutting calories!  It’s all about you!

Victim!  Stop playing the victim role!  Just do it!!!  It’s easy to self-pity, it’s courageous to make a change.  If you are looking for sympathy, you will always carry that weight around.  Start doing something about it today, not tomorrow - today!

The result is in the body.  Those who want this enough, work hard enough, complains very little, stays consistent, is self-motivated, have self control, self love, self respect, hunger to win, usually does.

This will not end once you start losing weight.  It’s just the beginning.

YEP, PMS IS HERE!!! ANYONE  PLEASE HELP YOUR GIRL GET OFF THE SOAPBOX!

Breakfast:

Whole Wheat English Muffin, 0.5 muffin 67 13 1 3 Jams, preserves, jelly, 1 tbsp 56 14 0 0 Beans, Kidney beans dark red 3 serv can, 0.5 serving 70 13 0 5 Steel Cut Oats, dry, 0.2 cup 112 22 2 5 Raisins, golden seedless, 0.15 cup (not packed) 66 17 0 1 green tea, 3 serving 0 0 0 0

Lunch:

green tea, 1 serving 0 0 0 0 Trader Joe’s Frozen Spinach Lasagna, 0.25 serving 85 7 5 5 Strawberries, fresh, 1 pint as purchased, yields 107 25 1 2 Romaine Lettuce (salad), 2.5 cup, shredded 20 3 0 2 Spinach, fresh, 1 cup 7 1 0 1 Red Ripe Tomatoes, 1 medium whole (2-3/5″ dia) 26 6 0 1 Asian Spicy Peanut Vinaigrette, 1.5 tbsp 53 6 3 1 Chicken Thigh, 1 thigh, bone and skin removed 82 0 3 14

Dinner:

White Rice, medium grain, 1.5 cup 363 80 1 7 Chicken Thigh, 1.2 thigh, bone and skin removed 99 0 3 16

Snack:

French Fries, 0.3 small 87 10 5 1 Congee (Asian Rice Porridge with Chicken), 0.5 cup 30 6 1 2 Ground beef, 1 oz 88 0 8 5 Bolthouse Farms Carrot Juice, 4 oz 35 7 0 1 Apples, fresh, 0.5 large (3-1/4″ dia) (approx 2 per lb) 63 16 0 0

			CALORIES	CARBS	FAT	PROTEIN
			1,513	246	32	70
			1,620 - 1,970	210 - 304	42 - 73	60 - 164

I got up too late to get everything in today.  But I did get up at 6am - again I ate about 800 calories from the beginning.  Went to the gym and BEAT MY OLD TIME FROM YESTERAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 SO excited!  Didn’t plan on it but did it anyhow!  I did 5 miles of my own interval training with free weights + the BOSU.  I did 1 mile at 9 min flat.  Then did my upper body weights.  Jumped back on the treadmill and did another 9 min mile.  Did more weights with emphasis on core then back on for 1 10 minute mile.  Then I did some lower body workout and back on for a 2 miles.  1 mile walk at the maximum incline for my bootay then then finished it off with 1 mile jog and cool down with 20 min. of yoga.

The only thing I missed out on is yoga class.  But who’s to say I can’t do it at home tonight to finish day off.

I’m really tired now.  Have to go eat.  Yah! Get to eat as I want again.

 You know the idea, no, just knowing I can eat to  my hearts content is making me a very happy woman.

BTW, last night I had a huge bowl of ice cream with chocolate syrup - no guilt just pleasure!!

Gotta take a nap, spend time with the family for Easter.

I’ll be back to check on my buddies later on today.

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY FREAKIN’ GO**! FINALLY everything paid off!  All the hard work!!!!!  Finally those 3 freakin’s lbs that came on last month dropped off my body.

I was frustrated and refuse to get on the  scale since, well since last month.  Starting to wonder when is the scale ever ever ever going to move for me??????????  I try hard enough.  Every single day!  I exercise a lot, eat moderately, stay active, need sleep though, but drink my water, take my vitamins, eat my fruits, eat my vegetables…………. did everything I’m suppose to but after 70+ lbs I felt like this is the end of my road.  DON’T TAKE ANY STUPID AS* PILLS! Oh, and if you take pills, that’s you - but you know what - I don’t care about dumb as* gimmicks!!!   And if you are one who wants to lose weight fast, that’s your perogative!  But I know that losing it slowly is the one and only way.  And for many who plateaus for a few days, try plateauing for months…..but don’t give up!!! Never ever give up and give in!! If I did I would never ever get to where I’m at today. 

Yah I did it the right way healthy way!!  And you know that saying the last ten is the hardest?  Well the last ten + 3 that came on sucked big time!

I didn’t get any exercise in.  I realized I’ve been exercise with the move including for 6 straight days.  On top of that we’ve been at LAX all morning seeing Rod’s son and mom off to Africa.

We slept in.  Went back to see Fast and Furious kids free and We saw KNOWING.  Good movies!

OFF TO CHANGE MY TICKER!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Accountability:

My exercise off day - back at it tomorrow.  yes, the push-ups 360, weights and I want to run 4 miles!

Breakfast: rice and baked chicken breast

Snack: dried papaya - sweet so sweet

Lunch: Beef stir fry with onion and rice

Movie snack: 1 small sv of m&m’s Shared with my honey, a few gummy bears and sunflower seed + 1 tall cup of coffee w/ cream and a little sugar (treat)

Dinner: 1 baked thigh, 1/2 chicken breast and sml serving of beef stir fry w/ 2 cups rice 

As some of you know, today was a fiasco in the making.  But Rod and I handled ourselves very well! YAH to good communication! :)  My car broke down for the third Monday in a row.  I refuse to let that stop me from doing my classes.  No way no how.   UH HUH!!!!!

My boss, ended up taking me to the gym.  Each person in my office knows how important my routine, my exercise is to me.  I love them.  We got there 10 min after Step started.  I was in exercise heaven!  Got done with that, ate my energy bar and did my kickboxing class. 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH TALK ABOUT THE WALK HOME!  It wasn’t bad.  It ended up being 3.5 miles from my house.  But get this EARLIER in the day I walked  about 1 mile at break and 1 mile at lunch.  So after almost two hours of hard cardio, the 3.5 miles home was hard.  The first 3 miles was great.  When I hit the light button to cross the street to go home, all the adrenaline in my body disappeared.

I walked the my Korean store bought 6 huge avocado for $2.97.  I dragged myself the last 1/2 mile home.  I barely made it through the door just exhausted.

Rod felt so bad.  He took off my sticky and stinky socks.  He is back to working on the car. But is coming right in to make dinner for me.  I am completely exhausted. 

So what did I get in today?  5.5 miles of walking total, 50 min of step class - new routine and 1 hr of kickboxing.

I promised to get the new roster up.  As soon as I finish my nap I’ll be right at it.  Loni, I promised you girl!  It will be there!

I ate well all day.

Tomorrow……can’t think of tomorrow.  I’m too tired. LOL!!!!!!!!

This morning something told me to take my running shoes, IPOD and be ready for a good day.  I wanted to walk because well because I do a lot of other cardio classes that are intensive.  SO easy walking was my goal.

Goal - 8 to 10 miles walking

What did I get in 10 miles of walking

See, even when I set this goal I doubted myself.  I can walk but not that much in one day.  Jane, my assistant mapped our walk at break and told me .66 miles.  I figure I could get about 2 miles in and do 8 at home.  Well turned out it was .91 miles which made my walk during two breaks and lunch about 3.64 miles.

GREAT NEWS!!  The shocks that cost me over a grand came in.  With a cloudy day ahead of me I took full advantage of it.  I walked the remainng  6.36 miles around my business complex and surrounding area which is right next to John Wayne Airport!  Not only did I walk but I walked the OC bridge - the over pass 6 times!  That was  a very steep walk and it was AWESOME!!!! I loved it.  While Rod worked at his friend’s rim shop to put the shocks on I walked the evening away.

Honestly, walking like Salsa does not tire me out.  I’m used to high intensive cardio and sweating like a pig.  Well, the cold air, cloudy day contributed to lack of sweat I will say.

My goal is to do these long walks once a week.  So next week I am going for 12 miles - I want to do my own walking marathon.  That way, I know when it’s time to do the LA marathon next year I can run/walk it until I finish.

I realized one other thing too………as long as I have a pair of shoes, my music and these two good lungs God blessed me with I can EXERCISE ANY TIME ANY PLACE!

If I had my sports bra I would have done a walk/run.

Hey tomorrow is a new day.  I am aiming to get 350 more regular push-ups in, a weight routine after work and a good 3 mile run  in 30 minutes.

SET  YOUR MIND TO IT AND IT WILL BE DONE!  THE ONLY PERSON STOPPING YOU IS YOU!!

Day 2 of 100

Food Angel = 2

Food Demon  = 0

The IPOD completely made a difference you guys!   Thank you so much for pointing me in the right direction!  I used it to do a 6 mile run this morning.  Thank God for allowing this to be a cloudy cold morning.  If the sun was up I’d be at the gym running on a treadmill.

I did the deed oh yes!!!!! 5 mile run straight not fast like I want but just a straight 5 miles.  Then I walked the last mile.  I have a new love who rivals with JIM.  Oh poor JIM cheating on him with SPRING!

Of course I don’t count the warm-up, cool down and stretching that I do.  I hope I can get Yoga in before the end of the day.

Well it’s off to bed with my sexy honey Rod.  I need to sleep for a few more hours.  Whew!!

I don’t know if anyone saw the new The ROCK Disney’s movie…..but we are going to see it tonight.

If I could…………might or may do a 2 mile walk or jog tonight before the movie.

I have to apologize for being a bad buddy the  last few days.  I have not read as many blogs as want.  If I didn’t catch yours I’ll try this weekend.  Ahhhhhhhhhh miss the forums too! Ouch!

Food wise I was barely in control yesterday.  The last week was bad.  I ate after midnight 5 times.  That’s the worse since I started buddyslim.  I need to pull it together in the food category.  It’s not like I starve myself.  In fact I eat more then I should or so I think.

Anwayz, today and tomorrow Zoom to Dooom is ON!

I CAN’T RUN FROM WORK ANYMORE! The sun and I can never be friends. Here’s the problem - genetics! I have dark Asian skin - kiss the sun for 10 min. and I turn 1 shade darker and it lasts for over a year almost. I always hide from the sun. Winters are my favorite time of the year because I stay the lightest I’ll be all year. With the time change I can’t run until after 6:30pm. I know there are many people who pays for tans but I don’t and I don’t like being darker. Shoot, give me a full day in the sun and I can be as dark as you know who we shall not name *Rod* shhhhh!!

With this realization I opted to run at the gym. Plus side got there 1 1/2 hr before yoga and started. Oh man I was loving my run! There was a guy next to me who kept me going. We ran and ran 40 min later I get a tap - ahhhhhh gym is maxed and I went 20 min over the max time during a full day. So I got off, peed, drank water and jumped on a different treadmill for a 13 min. walk.

I have to tell you I am so proud of my progress! I mean less then 3 weeks in I increase my speed - cut my miles to under 10 minutes per mile and ran 38 minutes straight - no walk except warm up and cool down. Actually its 9.50 per mile! My goal this month was to get to 11 min per mile by end of March - I’m there!!!!

What did I accomplish today? 330 push -ups actually got in 350 push-ups! :), 4 mile run, 1 mile walk and 1 hour yoga + + 10 min abs with Nygel - snuck into their Set class.

My run goal for this week - do 5 miles on the streets with 1 mile walk in 65 min. Maybe this Friday……..???

I’m tired now. Gonna go eat, chat with my honey and come back to check on my buddies!!

It’s 4am and I can’t sleep.  Rod is snoring away and I’m up just sitting here in the dark with a million thoughts running through my head.  Might as well get it down.

Everything everything!  I learned today never to take anything for granted;especially love.  Love fierecly, love with all my heart and never for a second forget that it can all be taken away in a split second.

Foodwise not my best but not too bad in terms of moderation.  I am so glad all the chips are gone!  I hope no one else brings more in.  I just can’t help it, if it’s here I eat it! :(  Just a complete weakness for bad food.  However, instead of eating bowls or handfuls of it at a time, I eat some just enough to fulfill that urge to eat and walk off.

I got up late both mornings.  So breakfast was later then usual.  Sunday, I decided to do no exercise and just sleep in with Rod (well exercise in bed hehe).

Can I tell you, the tension in this house is thick as black smoke?  My mom and I are not talking and have not talk since we had a major fight between Rod, my brother and my  mom intervening a few days ago.  Let’s say my mom, my brother was about to get physical with US, it was hard for me to defend people when everyone I love is involved.  But sadly, I realized this much, my mother will never ever have my back.  Her choice, my brother.  I told her I’m not talking to her anymore.  I only have to deal with her for two more months.  That’s it.  But it’s making my life here a living he**.  I’m doing my best to stay upbeat and look into the future, a happier future…but I can tell it’s really effecting my mental state.  I am done trying to please my mom.  Nothing I do will ever be good enough.  So why bother?  I’m just going to be me and do what I want for my self.  She doesn’t like it so be it - I don’t care anymore.  Caring only brings me heartache.  The only person who stands by my side and defends me is Rod.  Never have I felt protected and loved because most of my life I fight battles by myself.  Finally I have a partner who stands by me.  None of this is easy.  Yes, I know blood is thicker then water but how much can one person take? Tired of mind games, tired of people only looking out for number one, tired of people only wanting to do things when it’s in their best interest.

Therefore, what is this girl doing?  I’m going to be selfish, and take care of the person least taken care of - myself.   I can say I am not turning to food to deal with my problems.  No binges, no outrageous eating.

Enough of that now.  I just like having this all down.  Perhaps one day I can reflect on this and smile when I have a better relationship with my mom.  Lord knows, I try to please that woman but sometimes I don’t think I can ever do that.

Monday morning I’m eating dinner for breakfast again.  Food cooked and ready to be eaten by me.  I have my apples, my veggies, my proteins and fiber all lined up for my 3 hours of class.   1500 calories by 3pm!  I can do it!  Oh, Iwill have so much fun stuffing my face with good food.  Weekends, bad moderate choices.  Monday - back to square one and eating good energetic food.

Plan:

Breakfast: 2 servings of stir fried green bean w/ 1/3 cup rice, 1 fuiji apple, coffee and water

Snack: 1 cup corn, 2 cups green tea

Lunch: 2 boiled egg w/ tuna, 2 kiwis, 1 cup green tea

Preworkout food: 2 sv of oatmeal w/ gogi berries, water

During Workout food: 1 energy bar 200 cal, water

Exercise: 1 hr step, 1 hr kickboxing and 1 hr yoga

Dinner for breakfast completely worked! HEHE I liked it! I liked getting my veggies and meat out of the way early on. I liked eating a few servings of oatmeal for lunch and not feel deprived of my protein. Well, it’s not something I do every day only on my very active cardio days. As I said, my Russian girlfriend is so RIGHT! Eat what you want early and you have the rest of the day to burn it off.

I’m excited and a bit anxious about Tuesday. I told my Rod the plan is for him to drop me off at work. I will run/jog the 5 miles home. Hey what better way to be environmentally friendly, contribute to saving mama earth, save gas and money and GET MY EXERCISE IN AND GET HOME ALL IN ONE!!!! I also have 340 push-ups planned throughout the day. What better way to hit all my goals in one day right? ONLY ONLY if I can will do weights for the day will I do them once I get home.

Brihanna, I used www.mapmyrun.com to plan my run. It’s a great tool and accurate! Try it.

Yesterday it saddened me as I read blog after blog about giving up, how difficult this is and wanting to give up……..etc.

I also admire my fellow buddies for pulling through and blog support! That’s how we do it!! We help each other through hard times.

THIS IS A COMPLETE MENTAL GAME! Every day you have to look in that mirror and want it enough for you!!!! For you and no one else. You have to play the game each day. Know what your goals are, adjust as needed and come out a winner - one point at a time!!

If you give up - what then? What do you have? Weight gain is 100% guarantee - that’s the only guarnatee! So don’t give up and don’t give in.

It’s March - get back that fighting spirit you had in January!

Personal note - for me I fight the battle each day, sometimes each second. I just know that I am in a better place. There is no way I will give up. NO WAY!! Even if it takes me 2 more years to lose 10 lbs - I will fight and never give up. BECAUSE GIVING UP MEANS GIVING UP ON ME. IF I GIVE UP ON ME, I CAN’T EXPECT MY LOVED ONES TO NOT DO THE SAME! Like love, if you don’t love yourself, then don’t expect anyone else to love you. WE ARE WORTH IT! And that’s why are are all here; to win and conquer this battle once and for all.

Like the old saying, it takes a village to raise a child; WELL, IT TAKES A VILLAGE TO LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF! WE ARE THAT VILLAGE!