MORNING KICKAS*; Tired of wanting control so I let it all go.
This morning - I set my alarm for 5:30 am weight work out and I got it in. Oh my, this was the first time I did weights in two weeks and it was heavenly!!!!!! :) All I need is a run, some push-ups and my yoga class to finish my evening.
LAST NIGHT
I was at the gym talking to other people when I get a call from Rod about 10 minutes before class. Ummm, Lexus is in the shop and it needs this this and that. He gives me the total. I’m like, I don’t have even $50 to cover any of this work. This was after the other money I spent earlier in the week on the car. He says, oh, well, just letting you know because I can’t drive the car home. Well, what do you want to do I asked. Can you come get me I’m in LA? No, I have two classes! Sigh, so what do I do? It just killed killed my mood and anticipation of two great classes. I swear, all the food I ate in the world could Monday gave me zero energy. I just kept thinking - what little money I have now for food for him and gas for work - all gone to the car!
Class was great but I was too upset that I didn’t enjoy it like I normally would. And the thought of missing yoga just makes me miserable. 
On the way there I kept thinking, when am I ever going to get a small break? Just a small one? Where I don’t have to worry about every penny I spend. I don’t have to worry about all the bills that must be paid. More importantly, who will I react when I see him will either 1) cause a fight or 2) we live in peace. I want the later. I don’t want or need an argument.
I get there and instead of reacting - huffing and puffing about what money needs to be spent just be more broke then we are already - is that possible? I just waited for my kiss, he came over put gas in the car and we talked.
He has this calm attitude which is what I needed. He went on to explain he worked a deal with his friend the rim shop owner. He got some new tires, and all the needed replacement parts almost near cost. Good thing his friend will let him get the parts, put it on the Lexus and work it off this weekend.I’m glad I took the time to think about how I was going to react before getting there. I’m glad I listened and was a good partner. I could be sitting here writing a blog about the argument we got into over money.
Instead, I’m writing one about how two people, who with close to $0 in their pockets, worked together as a team, found a solution to a problem and counted their blessings. We truly did. As I drove us home we talked about how in this economy, what little we have, we should thank God for. We have so much because we have money still coming in, enough to pay bills and stay afloat and you know what? Things will always happen - car repairs, bills, bills, bills….what’s the point of stressing over it? I know as the breadwinner I feel like a failure each time I do not make budget. But I have to let it go.
I know there are greater catastrophes taking place each and every day. But this blog is about my life. I can’t speak for anyone else. I sometimes feel a bit guilty talking about myself - but this is my space to share my thoughts and my daily struggles with everything that effects my personal journey.
I ate well all day no process food. Just good healthy food. I’m just taking a step back and getting my head back in gear.
Things worked out! That’s wonderful!
Best of all you didn’t fight or argue… that’s always a bonus! I know how you feel though… and sometimes I wonder why I spend so much time stressing over money. Somehow things have a way of working out and it never stops surprising me.
Good job! *clapping*
Great job letting go. Things always have a way of working out.
Great job letting go and avoiding a fight. Glad everything worked out in the end.
Good Morning, so happy you got to enjoy your weights. I’m glad things worked out in the end and you avoided a fight. You are right, bills, car repairs all of that stuff will always be there. It’s just so hard not to stress over money. In my opinion you should be proud you keep it together as well as you do. Budgeting is a difficult task, then add unexpected bills……….. big ole stressor. I am going to send some extra prayers your way.
Hubhy and me have learned the same. alothough now with me losing my job bills will be even harder to pay, but we will figure things out. We always do. Way to take a bad situtation and make it a good one.
I am so very proud of you for thinking it through. That is wonderful. I need to learn from this blog. I am just ready to bite everyones head off. And thinking hahah. I am not good at thinking. So I will take your blog and hopefully learn something from it
Way to go not causing a fight! And still got your workout in.
You guys will be alright: you have each other. That’s what it’s really all about anyway.
Guilty? Woman, it is YOUR blog
That is what you are supposed to do, talk about YOURSELF ~~~ I have also taken to looking at the bigger picture with things rather than blowing things out of proportion and huffing and puffing. This too shall pass… And ur right, look at all the adversity already going on in the world. It is a small price to pay to have a safe and cozy place to sleep at night to not get to spend as freely as we’d like, I agree with you 100%. Ur doing awesome in so many different areas in ur life, Nancy 
GREAT job ~~~
Becky, you are soooo right my dear sweetheart. I don’t know what’s going on with me.
Money is a major struggle for a lot of couples. We just do what we have to do. I know it will be so much better when I get done with school so we are hanging in there. I hope Rod gets a job soon! Hugs.
i am so proud of you!!! sometimes i have to do the same thing with my husband. instead of blowing up and outta control. you need to just stop and listen then things can be talked about in a calm manner. because an argument can be avoided the majority of the time.
we dont always have to fight/argue and storm out the door.
High fives your way! I’m proud of you to hear that you kept your cool and thought about not fighting before hand. You are such an inspiration in so many ways! Kudos to you your hotness!
ahhhh Shelly - sniff sniff!
HI FIVING YOU BACK HON!
Hey… you did great. Life situations are not good right now. I see it in our business.. way down from last season, but holding our own. I just had to put money into my car to keep it running because I don’t want to commit to a loan for new. Can only hope things will get better for all of us. AND thanks for the come back… will try to get on here more often…
“Mo”
Hey Kama never feel guilty about blogging about your life here…. if it helps, keep it up. Just take one day at a time. I’m havng a bit of a better day myself. Got out for a run and made up for Sunday.
oooops Nancy… was doing three things at once and called you Kama by accident!!!! Sorry!!!
Nancy I’m so glad everything is working out with the car.
I know money troubles just never seem to end do they?
It’s so frustrating but you did well by taking the time to think things out first and going into the discussion calmly.
Have a great evening.
Lori
Money - I would love some one day haha I agree - it’s so hard being broke. I’m going to be out of food for a week…UGH. HATE having no money!!
oh wow, I already commented…lol!
Don’t feel guilty about talking about yourself! You spend enough time taking care of the rest of us!!
That stinks. That car has been so hard on you both. I think it’s great you didn’t have a fight!
oh i’m soo stressed over money my tuition in due, i ordered books online and my parents let me stress over for dayyss before telling me they can pay for my books, and i sold my other books online and they payments didn’t go through yet and i’m seriously about to go back to school with all my savings i worked my ass of for this summer…gone:( and i been takin my anger out on my mom, i wish i was a nicer daughter and thought before fighting like u did!
good for you. It really is hard to be calm in the storm sometimes. Hang in there sweetie. You really are doing great
Very proud of you girl. I have to think like this too. I may not be rolling in money, but my needs are met.
You are so right… Im not working, but we are blessed, there is a roof over my head, 2 cars me and mine kids have clothes and food… Thank you Father for all my blessing and the blessing of my friends… In Jesus name I pray… God bless you Nancy… Your blog and your words and such a blessing for everyone else!
