Nancy’s Weight loss Journey 5 Yrs & Counting

Well I am straight bored out of my mind! I have Rodney’s son and the nephews here. We are just hanging out but they took over everything - TV,  X-box, computer…..AHHHHH I see children!!

As I sit here on my brother’s computer I watch as my drunk sister dance like a mad woman/stripper to 80’s new wave music and 90’s Euro mixes.  Hey I miss the old stuff…well old for me.  Brings back good memory  Thing about music is nostalgia.  We’re having fun.

Speaking of fun I was watching one of my favorite youtube clips - Angelah Johnson.  It’s a good thing I have Vietnamese blood in  me and I know of a few peeps near and dear to my heart that still have the thick Asian accent.

If you want to see it check it out!  Just be open minded that’s all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsWrY77o77o

Not sure what came over me today but I ate and ate and ate.  From fruits to wafer bars to a few bites of corndog, then stir fried crabs and the most delicious fried fish, to shrimp miso soup, to ice cream to  chips  and so forth.  I didn’t eat a large portion; just continued to eat and practically inhaling the food.

I did offset it with stir-fried spinach and stir fried chicken that I couldn’t start eating because it felt too healthy -yah go figure.  Problem is it’s 10pm and my brother just made bake chicken and french fries…..I’m doing my best not to eat it.  Praying I stay strong and keep away.

I’ve been eating so healthy for a good two months.  Today I just let go and enjoyed food.  Oh, almost forgot the 3 donuts!! Yikes!!!!   So for the first time in a long time I binged!

Right now I feel sick and want to throw it all up.  I guess this is what it feels like to put more fat then I eat in a week into one day.

Nope - won’t worry about it.  I enjoyed it.  It’s over now.  Back to eating like I should tomorrow.  No GUILT NO GUILT!!!! (lying to myself works sometimes).

I have to go to bed and get ready for my early morning kickboxing and weights session.

Goal today: Walk a couple miles in the morning, yoga then 4 miles of jog/run tonight because I missed Step

Accomplished so far: 6 mile walk with a coffee reward on the way home

This morning I did not want to get up and leave Rod behind.  So I ate my oatmeal and banana and crawled back to bed.  After missing class I decided I will go for a nice stroll.  The stroll turns out to be a 6 mile walk.  I didn’t have any music.  So I listened to nature and enjoyed an early Saturday morning in Southern California.  It is a cloudy day or this TAN TOO EASY girl won’t be out in the sun.  I tan just by walking in the sun for 10 minutes.

On my walk I refrained from jogging and running.  That’s for a different time.  Instead I took the time to decompress and just enjoy my surroundings.  I wanted to put the daily stress of life aside and enjoy the moment.

This is where the Angel God sent me comes in:

Half way on my walk in a very quiet area with few cars and people I met a beautiful young woman.  She was walking fast and I told her that.  We started a chat.  I told her she’s fast.  She said I walk a lot.  She was  walking towards the train station.  She said she lives on the southern tip of OC and was walking from work.  It’s a 3 1/2 mile trek.  Then on the train then from the train another 1 1/2 miles home.  All to feed her 3 children as she’s a single mom.  She said I can’t afford a car or gas on a $10 salary here in OC.  She’s from Ohio.  Husband left her with poor credit and no support.  So we chatted on.  You know what got me about this woman?  She radiated LIFE!  Can you imagine her predicament?  This place is expensive to live in especially on $10 an hour and I make way more then that and still struggle.  She has no car but what the Lord gave her - her legs.  She isn’t whining about life instead she exudes confidence, love and enthusiasm about life.  Never in the 10 min. I spent with her did she complain.  She is looking to a better future.  She’s beautiful she’s young and she’s going to make it.  I looked at her in awe and I told  her she is a blessing to me today.

As we parted she said “I need to do this and if someone else was in my position I wouldn’t hesitate to lend a helping hand”.

I wiped tears of joy for being blessed to meet a woman like that.  I am going to draw from her energy and live it each day.  No more negative thoughts.  Just do it!!! Just do it!

So today I will pray and thank the Lord for sending me an angel as a reminder of how blessed I am today.

*Smile and give your loved one a warm hug and tell them that you love them*

I won’t lie.  I’m not up to par with my attitude yet.  Rodney got the Biometrics process going.  Let’s pray for the best now right?

Can we say oucher like OUCHER!!!!!!!!!!!!  Now I’m used to soreness and aches as it’s a part of exercise.  Especially when you are beginning or like me, whenever I switch up my routine.  So not being a runner and a runner wanna be I went to bed feeling good but anticipating the SORE! :)  I was expecting in the SHIN but that was not the case.  I guess almost a year of weights helped strengthen those babies.  Now as some of you know I messed up my groin muscles bad almost two years ago.  So I baby that area a lot.  This morning as the day stretched my groin and inner thigh was sore like a bi**h.  I guess it’s working muscles that are under developed.

I’m glad I’m sore because even with all the classes that I do daily, I’m so used to them that I don’t always feel it.  ARRRR I want to feel the burn.  I thrive on the burn!
IF you are doing the push-ups, tell me where you are feeling the most soreness?  I can tell you if you have good form or not with that.

Typically I feel the soreness in all of my upper body - chest, triceps, biceps, shoulders, chest and the back as well as the abs sometimes.  If you are keeping good form - this goes for all the girl, wall, desk and regular push-ups.  Also important as you continue doing these is to try and lower yourself as close to the ground as possible and use your muscles to come back up.  This will take time so don’t rush it.

I just finished my weights session with planks incorporated into it.  Upper body only.  I feel tightness everywhere.  No lower body till Sunday.

So excited about tomorrow.  I can’t wait to learn a new Step routine then do my yoga in the morning.  Have to be up at 6 am to eat for it.  Then in the eveing it’s marathon training #2.  4 miles walk/run around the area.

On any other day I would be so happy to get my push-ups increase from 260 to 300. But today it’s a bittersweet moment. I reached goal - did sets of 20 and 25’s. Next time I want 30 at a time. so it was easy to get to 300 today. Yes Regular push-ups. Tonight I’m not sure if I have time for kickboxing but weights yes. Then tomorrow it’s a 4 mile run around my neighborhood with yoga and Step.

My Rod went to court to take care of a personal matter that would either help him with his green card status or having it denied and yes - return to Kenya permanently. Not good news and here comes money spending time. At first I was not go to blog it but hey it’s my blog and I can cry if I want to. As a green card holder myself I know what he’s going through. This is the only life we know - here in America. What happens if it’s stripped away? What if you go back and you don’t fit in with the people back home? See he will never be a pure Kenyan. Just like me. If I went back home - I will not be a “Cambodian” because to the Cambodians I’m too American. What it boils down to is acceptance. But why worry about the future right? Well in the back of my head I wonder how is it going to effect us?? We plan on getting married. So what if my husband is sent back to Kenya? Do I go there to? How am I going to adjust to that lifestyle? See crazy thoughts just crazy thoughts.

Well, I’m going to focus on the today and now. He will get an immigration lawyer and get going on taking care of his issues. I can’t help him with this one. It’s his battle to fight. I can only support him and that I can do no doubt.

Moments like this makes me want to take a nice drive to the beach and listen to the crashing waves and kick sand around with my honey on my side.

What’s my lesson for today? Never take anything for granted. Life is short and precious. Let’s make the best of it.

LA MARATHON TRAINING #1

Goal: Walk/jog the 1 mile to the gym and run on treadmill for 1 mile

What accomplished:  WALKED/JOG/RAN 3.3 MILES!!

I came home to our conversation about the Marathon.  R u shocked as I am?  He said he’s not ready and that he’s out of shape!!!!  I took one look at his freakin’ loving face and I said you are 34 years old….we are doing this for US!!! One year for an eventful one day that we can tell our children about!  He said are you serious?  I said no shi* sherlock!!!!  He said he would “walk” - whoooooooooaaa what happened to the “MAN” who “Ran” from LA to Long Beach????  Nah baby boy, you are going to train with me and we are going to do this - come hell or high water!!!  Oh Yah -what happen to I’m Kenyan - I runs Marathons in my sleep!!! Phish!!!

So I told him we doing this - no if’s ands or buts about it!

So he took off for LA to buy some tires for our car - blow out last night.  And I decided to scrap my Athletics training class.

Yep you guessed it-I tested the waters tonight!  See I need to take baby steps…SO I did

I took a warm up walk..then started setting goals - to the first stop light - no stop….ok walk….to the next longer stop light no stop…….I continued like that.  Before you know it - I was taking a cool down walk around my apt complex on home to stretch out and eat.

WOW!  WOW!  I didn’t know I had it in me.  I was so use to the comfort of the gym I was scared to venture out into the streets!  So tonight - I stripped and took it down to skin level.  I’m doing this - one baby step at a time.

There is no stopping me now!!! Guys, if you want to come a long for a ride…let me know.  We can do this.  Jo - today I started living my life!! Thank you hon for opening my eyes with your blog.  You are my inspiration!!!!!!!

I will need lots of encouragement from you!  So please when I whine -slap me k????

As our push-up and jog/run forum explodes I realized how infectious encouragement and support is on this site. We are doing it baby! See, each of us are realizing that there are no limits to what we can and can not do.

As I was chating with Katie on the forum I realized that you know what a marathon…5k? nah!!
No I’m going for it!! So I called my honey up and told him what I want to do. LOS ANGELOS MARATHON 2010!!! I want the whole year to train. I feel fit enough to take this baby on. With my honey being Kenyan and all it’s in his blood. It’s not about time. I want to see what I can do. If it’s 10 miles of the the whole marathon then so be it. I just want to set a long term goal and accomplish it.

I’m at a stalemate with my weightloss. There’s not much more I can do to get the scale moving other then to finish the move Rod and I planned in May. Then I will have 100% control over my food. I’ve made changes all the way around and I need a jumpstart - a goal that will make me be proud - proud of how far I’ve come.

So Rod and I will have a serious talk about it tonight. I will need my teammates and tribemates to help encourage me and support me with love as well as tough love!!!! I want to do this and I will do this!!!!!

I don’t care if I walk/jog/run or limp the thing - all I know is I want it for me. I’m starting to realize that I have a spark and interest in living life that never once was there till I became a Buddyslimmer and exercise enthusiast. I found my niche and I will claim it.

On the subject on weightloss - I’m beginning to see why I have a hard time losing weight. There’s a mental block. See, as much as I’m doing this for myself…I also want the approval of my lifemate - my honey. To him, I’m at a decent weight, too small for his taste as he likes thicker women but just enough meat left for him to grab on to.

So whether or not I lose 1 more lb. I want to enjoy life today. I want to do things and not worry about how many calories I ate and what the scale tells me. I’m wearing a solid size 7 and a 5 here and there. I am wearing small and medium shirts. I fit into all my old small clothes. So for that reason I will enjoy the journey.

So the Marathon - is my way to continue to tone up and get fitter and live a full life!!!!!!! And I’m taking my honey on the ride with me. This is something we can do together.

I’m rambling but that’s because I’m excited for what’s to come!!!
So my question is - WHY ARE YOU LOSING WEIGHT?

This is more for my record then anything….the butt that was 185 lbs……..

To the butt it now is today…………….yes Rod is crying BUT I’m NOT!

I don’t know why but even though I have not lost one lb since 1/7/09….my butt sort of went by the wayside.  And I’m not putting any efforts in because the butt is reserved for Rod.  But like the boobs the butt the good stuff goes first.  Yes,  I know all about butt workouts - I just hate seeing the fat melt off there.  Why won’t it come off my arms?????

So sad….I am missing my classes.  I sigh then eat and sigh some more.   I am putting a heat pad on my hippity hip.  Should be good to go tomorrow.

My Rod is working on gathering the parts and the people to replace the suspensions, belts and axle on my car.  That $1300 will come in handy.  He has a friend that will do the body work - damage by the cyclist for about $500.  Rodney’s labor is free and so I will save a ton of money there.

The cold is also messing with my knee a bit.  I have a bad knee due to not learning proper form when I first started kickboxing 4 years ago.  So now everytime it’s cold, it aches.  I feel like I’m 80 years old….that coupled with my volcanoe out nose and third eye - I feel so attractive.  *I snicker*

Conflicting feelings right now.  A part of me is still thinking of Cookie - JO and her loss.  Another part of me wants to be happy.  OK, will be happy and sad at the same time.

I dedicate this blog to you Jo and Kama. Words can not describe the sorrow I feel for you. Here are two strong women - who are dealing with recent losses of loved ones and yet they still take the time to love us!! They are amazing people! Even though I lost my dad 11 years ago, whenever I hear of death I hurt for you - especially because they are my friends. I love you guys.

I am cancelling on “JIM” (gym) today. Good sex with the honey threw out my left hip area. So I’m pushing my workouts to Thurs. and Friday.

I want to share with you my own little miracle. My car, my pooor pooor Lexus and a motorcycle got into an accident last June. A motorcylist hits me but I didn’t have the $500 deductible to fix my baby. Well yesterday Rod went to get an estimate and total repair for suspensions - SUSPENSIONS on my car is between $1100 and 1700…money I don’t have.

So Mercury insurance has been calling because they want to fix the damage done by the bike but like I told them 8 months earlier I don’t have $500 deductible money sitting around. GUESS WHAT THEY SAY? Ok, so we give you a check then for $1300.00!!!!!! Money money I didn’t account for. I can now get my suspension fix and go on from there. The body work for the damage done by the motorcyle - that’s esthetices it can wait.

God works in mysterious ways. I am thankful for my blessing. Jo, I will live each day as my last.

Men are evil!! Evil I say - well mine is at least.

I had my plan.  It was all set.  Go home, eat my pre-workout food, do some weights at home as Rod misses me, then to see gym or  “JIM” at 7:30pm for Salsa.  I was seeing both men as they are both important to me….well Rod threw in a movie - Death Racer - how romantic right?  HEHE  But it was a good movie.  Boy like hormonal raging teenagers we got in a “cardio” session at 7.  Yep Rod knew I wanted to cheat with Jim so he double dipped and I miss my second love.  So goes the 1 mile run I was looking forward to.

So after my “cardio” session I did my weights portion for the evening as Rod finished his gory movie.

I guess it works out for the best.  We agreed that this is considered an “OFF” day and I WILL get to see Jim on Thursday when it should be an off day.

Oh, confession time as I forgot to add this to my accountability- finally ate after 9pm last night - Lost $1 and did not earn my quarter.  After another “cardio” session with Rod I needed to refuel and yep ate 1 serving of Doritos and Ruffles.  :(    I am a sinner!!!

Tonight I will not do it again!!

So what’s up with Wednesday?  Kickboxing and Pilates!!! Can’t wait.  WHooo hoooooo!! Fun time fun time coming.  I am going to do my 1 mile run tomorrow!! No stopping anytime soon.

I notice some of my buddies are struggling a little with their journey.  Just remember this, you are striving for permanent weight loss and lifestyle change..not just getting to a certain number.  You are all learning to ride the wave of life; so do it and remember what goes up must come down and the cycle continues.  

My Gosh as I sit here writing this blog for the evening my baby is trying to put on weight.  Yes!!! With food.  Ahhhhhh what’s worse he is taunting me with a pound cake and sweet drinks.  Making love to food after he’s done with me - that’s abuse!!!!! I am so calling the diet cop on him!!!!!!  He is so not right!

So,what should the punishment be???  Oh what’s worse - he breathes on me with the smell of pound cake still fresh in his mouth.

If you haven’t done so ladies - please come join us in the Push-up forum.  You can find it in the Fitness Challenge section.

 My goal this morning was to do 260 regular push-ups.  This is a bit more then what I did a few days ago.  It’s all about progressing towards bigger and better things.  I MADE IT!!!!!

 Yesterday, as I told my forum people and my wildcats - we did 100+ tricep push-ups in yoga.  This is something my role model military guru Nygel does to help us build upper body strength.  She injects them in between chataranga’s.  Those were a bi*ch to do but I did every single one of them!!! 

Today I set my goal and made it!!  I will actually push to see how many more I can do but not necessary as I have my persona interval training session I have planned as well as a 1 mile run and Salsa baby Salsa!!!

 So, if you think you can’t do them, think again…….the best way to build upper body strength is via push-ups, planks, yoga, pialtes…..any workout that uses YOUR body weight!!!!!  Gym or no gym - now you have no excuse to not do it. 

 Oh, my orange allergy fiasco - I have a third EYE.  Last night when I tried to cuddle up with my honey - the 3rd eye got all the attention and laughs - yep one on the nose - my volcano and one right in between my eyes.