I’m losing my mind!!!! Day 30
I don’t know what is wrong with me lately -well, these last few days. Guys, I think I’m completely losing my mind. Maybe it’s TOM visiting me, maybe it’s the anticipation of the end of the year and not meeting my personal goals for the new year, maybe it’s because I drank so much water and tea my brain is waterlogged…I don’t know what it is but my anxiety level is at an all time high tonight. I’m not that bitchy, not mean - poor Rodney, as I normally would be during PMS…. but my stress level is through the roof and just antsy about everything.
My relationship with food took on a different chapter. Meeting day 30 of no grazing is weird. In 30 days I ate after 9pm 1 time and that’s because I didn’t meet my 1200 minimum for the day. Other than that I stay focus through all of Rodney’s late night fast food meals. I didn’t eat a single bite of food; if I get hungry I drink water or tea. I find that no matter how much I eat during the day, the bulk of my calories come from night time eating. So for the next few weeks I’m going to distribute my calories in various ways and see which works best. No cutting meals or snacks, just intuitive eating, getting the minimum amount of calories in for that days activity.
I’m fustrated is what it boils down to. Here I try to change my habits, eat right, eat healthy food, exercise on a regular basis with focus on every inch of my body, make a connection between mindy, body and soul - and I still lose next to nothing. Week after week I maintain and lose 1 lb here or there. I talk the talk and walk the walk, why won’t the scale be my friend?
Ahhhhhhh, so after reading Deb’s blog tonight, I know I have to make one more change. Battle the eating of “bites” that I do between snacks! So tomorrow is day #1! Can’t eat any “bites”, or take a lick of this or that, no tastings at Costco, no slurping out of other people’s drink, nothing but my main meals and 2 or 3 snacks.
So day 30 of no grazing at night and Day 1 of no grazing during the day.
I have to win this battle. The new year is coming up. There is no way I’m going into the new year a loser in my eyes. My goal was to get to 139 - 6 months ago. I can’t believe I’m not there!!!
Ok, with that said, here’s to a new Sunday. I’m getting to the gym at 6:30 am so I can get some lower body exercise and yoga in before my kickboxing at 8am.

I am sorry you are having a stressful day/night! You have to know what an awesome job you have done so far. Everyone that knows you must be impressed and proud. I know I am, as well as the rest of your buddyslim family. You will be going into 2009 a winner.

No more bites & no more grazing-great plan and good for you on the no grazing bit. No matter the scale-your efforts have proven themselves. You are one hot hottie! Hope you have a peaceful rest and have a great Sunday. Love ya!
Ahhh…Your goals are great girl…But lets not forget from where it is you came from!!
You have acheived great success in those months. And you may not be dropping five pounds a week now, but you dont have too…
Your body is slowing down as you near your goal…You are doing mostly the right things for YOU and YOUR body. And the fact that you recognized your calories came in the evening and are switching it up again is proof of your dedication and success…
Take care!!
I dont know alot about diet and eercise.Though my partner with no “real” effort walked to work (.8 of a mile) each day for one year each way. Sometimes she would get a ride in bad weather. That was 5 days a week.Lunch was always fruit,yogart,and green grapes,or sandwich,left overs.She lost 75 pounds.No calorie counting.No anything.She did plato @ 7 months no more weight loss maybe 2 pounds over a six weeks.Then whamo 35pnds in the next 3.5 months.The body just stopped and then restarted.With what you do I think the plato will be shorter and the start up more drastic.You have the rest of your life to stay fit=)You are someone who will.
you can do it girl! Maybe it because you are almost at your target, the last few pounds are always the hardest to lose. so keep on going you will succeed. You could be gaining musles { you know you you do killer workouts}and you know muscles weighs more that fat. Good luck mo
Small steps girl. U started from not eating at night, now ull stop biting stuff during day
Step by step and itll go better. Hold on with it. Dont stress too much. Try to find some time to chill. Usually after around a month of dieting i get the ultra-angry-on-everyone level so i know what ur dealing with. Just live through it, and then itll go away for a while 
Girl, don’t get all crazy on yourself, you’re doing awesome… and you already have a killer figure! The scales aren’t the tell all, my mom and I are now officially the same size and I still weigh 50 pounds more than her!!! (we are the exact same height) She’s FLUFF and I’m TOUGH!

Nancy, girl, I think the same way that I should have been 135 around June and it sucks it didn’t happen ! Life got in the way and it got terribly messy ! I know you can do it girl ! We have to ! hugs, Kimmi

Girl, you have accomplished so much. So to hear you say you are frustrated b/c you have not reached your personal goal is frustrating to me! You’ve worked your ass off and you are very in “tune” with your body and what it needs. Those little adjustments here and there will get you to your goal. Please give credit where credit is due!You are an awesome inspiration girl.
You are already a winner in my eyes Nancy! Please dont beat yourself up. You have done amazing things…AMAZING!!! It makes me sad to think you are not happy with your results…LOOK at you!!! Be proud, You are beautiful inside and out…be proud!
You have to stay strong Nancy. If I were you I would be pissed too, you work SOOOO hard but your body is just being stubborn and it will come off over time. I bet one day your body will just decide to drop those last few pounds…
You are doing everything right, you are amazing and hang in there.
make sure you are getting enough calories to actually lose weight. with all the exercise you do, you my need to eat more. the spreading food throughout the day is supposed to be the way to go. good luck with the hidden clories of the bited here and ther
also the stress/anxiety feeling could be related to caffeine if the tea is caffenated.you are doing super - just keep going!
I LOVE YOU GUYS! SERIOUSLY - when I needed support you all came through.
Dawn, thank you for the tough love!
Deb, thank you for the great blog last night. It is helping me get on the right track.
I just got home from the gym. Most of the workout high is wearing off - oh, I need coffee now hehe!
We have to leave for LA - Going to the Getty Museum and hanging out in Hollywood. Just me and Rod. I think it’ll help with the stress level.
Nancy!!! Stop beating yourself up girl! Look how hard you work! I bet alot of that is muscle!! You really inspire me and we will stop this grazing together, ok??
You enjoy today, and give yourself a break, love you lots!
I bet you are gaining muscle! Even if the scale doesn’t say it, you could be losing a pound of fat but gaining a pound of muscle!
Have you taken measurements at all? You might still be losing inches!
Nancy girl,
There is no way..no how…are you to consider yourself a loser-No!
You have made so many goals..some dont even have a thing to do with that number on the scale..hello…the number 400 ring a bell?? Number 30 ring a bell??
Calm down..you have come so very far…and not only should you be so proud of yourself…but so many of us (me! me!!.jumps up and down) are so very proud of you. Not only for the inspiration that you give us…the drive to go for that bit extra…but for one of the most beautiful spirits here. So many things that the scale can not tell you.
love ya girl…debbie
I have not been your buddy for long…but I can tell you that you are an inspiration to so many different people. The responses here prove that! You have accomplished so much — you have lost weight, changed your eating habits for the better and most importantly helped people believe in themselves and believe they too can do those things! So instead of dreading what you have not yet lost…think perhaps of what you have gained on this journey. Friends, confidence and a healthy you. I would trade a pound or two for all of those things! Keep working! You can do it!!
You guys always amaze me!
Thank you for everything.
I can’t say my day went all that well. I just got back from LA. Everything was amazing, the museum, getting to visit Bel Air and where my honey lived and visiting Hollywood. The drive sucked though.
The saddest part is we get home and found out Rod lost his wallet along with all of our credit cards. This - when we have to go grocery shopping.
Anyhow, I stayed on track and ate the fruits and veggies I packed for my trip. So grazing is so not winning this war.

Woo, thanks for the reminder. I’ve been slipping on the not eating after dinner thing. Sounds to me like you’re making changes in the right direction, and I’ve heard that the closer we get to our goal, the slower the weight comes off. Either way, stay strong! I know you can do it! You’re already doing great. Hugs!
Sounds like you are doing good, muscle weighs more than fat so it is possible you are gaining muscle and loosing inches
Thank you so much for the positive comment! I finished my last paper of the semester and now onto finals and focusing on becoming a more healthy me! Good luck to you on your goals! And I hope u r able to get the anxiety under control. Deep breathes! Take care—
Ok, I went and did some research on Sparkpeople for you, it may be long, but anything at this point is worth a try! Here it goes:
Plateau Busters - Part 1
Eat the Right Nutrients at the Right Times
– By Nicole Nichols, Fitness Instructor
We hear it all the time—you changed your habits and lost weight steadily, but after awhile, that progress halted. You’ve been stuck at the same weight for days, weeks, or even months. There’s nothing more frustrating than trying your best, feeling like you are doing everything right, yet not making any progress towards your weight loss or fitness goals.
Before you inhale a bag of cookies to console yourself, realize that weight loss takes work, and isn’t always perfect. But, there are plenty of ways you can re-energize your program (and motivation) to bust through your weight loss plateau.
But…what is a plateau anyway?
If you’ve been exercising and cutting calories for several weeks, and you’re no longer seeing the same results that you experienced in the beginning, then you’ve probably hit a plateau. This occurs when your progress comes to a standstill, and can be described as not making any “gains” (such as improving your fitness level or losing weight), but not necessarily moving backwards (losing endurance or gaining weight).
Because every individual is unique, there’s no way to actually predict when a plateau might happen. However, the following principles of nutrition, rest, and variation will jumpstart your body, mind, and metabolism. (This article, part 1 in a series of 3, will focus on nutrition.) Incorporate some or all of the following suggestions to both prevent and overcome a weight loss plateau. With just a little tweaking, you’ll be in your skinny jeans in no time!
Eat the Right Nutrients at the Right Times
1. Make sure you are following your SparkPeople nutrition plan correctly. During set-up, did you accurately account for your level of activity? Or, if you are more or less active than when you started the program, have you changed this option in your set-up so that your caloric plan will be accurate for you? This is very important so that you don’t eat too little for your body’s needs, which can actually hinder your weight loss.
In addition, are you accurately tracking your foods in the Food Tracker daily, yet not reaching the minimum number of calories that is recommended? It’s common to think that cutting MORE calories will result in faster weight loss, but that’s not actually the case. You should never consume less than 1200 calories per day. Eating less than this (or too little in general) makes your body think it’s starving (known as “starvation mode”), so it holds onto every calorie, slowing your metabolism. Increase your calories to fit into your recommended range, and you’ll notice a difference.
2. Your body can only do so much with the tools that it has, so eat well. Aim for a wide variety of foods (instead of the same old thing day in and day out) from every basic food group. Try new fruits and vegetables, ethnic cuisines, and a wide range of lean proteins, including non-meat sources like tofu and legumes. All (or most) of your grains should come from whole, unrefined foods like whole-wheat breads and pasta, and brown rice.
These healthy foods, especially when eaten every three to four hours, will help raise and stabilize your metabolism (and energy) to optimal levels. With fewer ups and downs, your hunger will stay in check, and you’ll have plenty of energy to finish a tough workout.
3. After a workout, refuel with a balanced snack or meal within 30 minutes to 2 hours. Remember, “balanced” does not mean just protein. In fact, most individuals—and even athletes—need less than 10 grams of protein post-workout. Carbohydrates are actually more important, so try to eat an additional 30 to 60 grams at this time, when your body is primed to uptake glycogen into the cells to replace the energy you just used up during your workout.
4. Don’t overlook your huge need for water. Hydration is very important for stable energy levels. (You store 3 molecules of water for every glycogen molecule). Plus, hydration promotes muscle building (powering your metabolism), while dehydration promotes muscle breakdown. So drink up—before, during, and after your workout sessions. The standard “8 cups a day” might not be enough for you, especially if you are exercising regularly.
OK THIS IS THE FIRST ARTICLE OF THREE, I COULD USE THIS INFORMATION MYSELF, SO I WILL GO BACK AND READ THIS FIRST PART AND READ AND POSTS PARTS 2 & 3 TOMORROW AND TUESDAY!! Hope this helps!!