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HAPPY HALLOWEEEN!!!!! 

I want to eat Candy candy and more Candy!!!! Lovin’ chocolate.  So candy cardio is done!

This morning was frantic.  I ran out the door at 5:40 to get to my 5:45am kickboxing class.  I knew if I did not get my cardio in for the day I won’t have time.  We have to pick up Rodney’s son from LA and take him to my sister’s house for a Halloween party.

This is the first time I’ve been to my morning classes since we lost the two cars.  They were so happy to see me and I was happy to see the instructor and the regulars.  The only thing that killed me was doing 8 Turbos at 6 in the morning.  What kind of sick joke was that?  So we skipped out on Recovery and the Finales - my two favorite parts.  She did give us a great abs section then yoga to finish off the workout.

 I hope everyone have a safe Halloween and whatever you do - ENJOY YOURSELF, YOUR FAMILY AND PARTY ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya see the amount of support I get from my family?
Jesus Christ, what can a girl do to get some support at home?  I can’t get any.  The other day my boyfriend gently joked I was having an affair at the gym.  Even though he’s kidding it’s the first time in a few months since he made those comments about my time working out.  Oh yes, gave him the evil eye for even making such a ridiculus assumption.  He’s going to pay for it though.  The next time I leave the gym to pick him up - I’m not going to change into clean clothes and it comes with a big sweaty hug and kiss and a rub of my sweaty hair on his arm.  Did someone have something smart to say?  hehehe

My mom and sister aren’t any better.  I walked into the kitchen last night wearing a pair of sweats that are a bit too big now.  My sister’s reaction “Damn, you lost your ass!”  Thanks for the sentiment little sis - as if Rodney doesn’t remind me enough every day.
So of course my mom chimes in “She also has a big head, no matter how much weight she loses she can’t lose that.  That’s why I keep telling her it’s all in vain, you exercise exercise and exercise some more but you ain’t gonna lose weight.”

Now you see why I need Buddyslim?  

Yesterday I stayed on point and didn’t eat past 9pm (thanks Kama)!  Nor did I go over my calorie need; stayed under 1400.

Today I have to increase it to 1700 - I have a 1/2 ab class with a hot instructor named Chris - cute cute, 1 hour Lift and 1 hr kickboxing.
<p>I’m taking my big head and no ass butt to the gym to prove them all wrong! :)</p>

I’m not going to lie to myself anymore.  Girl, your crazy ass eats too much.

Every day starts with great intentions: eat right, eat right and eat right, stay within calorie goal yada yada yada…. goes on and on.  Yet at the end of the day, I eat more then I should.

What I’m doing right: 

What I don’t get is I can get the water down.  Thanks to our team challenge from a while ago, I am now a water fiend.  I can down a gallon and some a day no problem. 

I’ve gotten sugar and salt intake down.  Most food I eat is broiled, baked or grilled except for the occasional stir fry this or that.  

Exercise, good Lord, that’s my savior from gaining weight, not lose but maintain.  Without it I don’t know where I’d be.  However, to me exercise is not about weight, it’s something I love doing so it’s fun and my biggest hobby.

What I’m doing wrong: 

I eat too much at night and I’m a huge grazer.  No matter how I spread out my calories because I tried every avenue - be it calories spread evenly during the day or the whole eat breakfast like a king and dinnner like a pauper, eat more carbs this time of day and more protein this time of day, or eat less during the day and more at night, I still have food issues.   

I can’t give up my white rice, don’t care what any ”diet” tells me, I must have some at least once a day.  I don’t eat as much as I used to, but I still eat it daily.    

Today, my goal is to figure out a plan that would keep me on track.  Don’t know what it is yet but I have to.  I have to eat enough during the day to sustain an active day, water is a must, maybe I can cut down on the coffee from 8 oz to 5 oz (down from 2 to 3 cups a day), drink more tea….ahhhh the list goes on.  My goal is to stay at 1400 on off days like today and at 1500 to 1700 calories on my active days. 

Yesterday I bombed it.  Went to 1800+ and then my crazy ass gets up at midnight and had a snack.  So when Rodney asked, “aren’t you suppose to stop eating at 8?” I said, “I’m on my period, DO not tell me I can’t eat!”  Poor honey.  :( 

 In the meantime got my water down already.

 This is not a whining post, just need to write down my thoughts so I can move on.  Whining won’t get me anywhere.  I have to be active and attack my issues head on.

Last night’s yoga class was tough.  It’s a power yoga class and the instructor is relentless; because I’ve been doing my own push-up regimen for about a month or so, when we did them in class it was a breeze.  My only gripe with last night was a latecomer who plopped her matt too close to me while wreaking of cheap, bad perfume.  Not only that she had poor form, her breathing was off and loud and she talked a lot - DURING CLASS.  Ok, so I’m happy for you that you finally did a pose correctly, but must you talk to “me” when I’m trying to concentrate on my practice?  Yoga is a very personal journey and not a partnership; when someone breaks my concentration I don’t take it well.  I couldn’t hold a tree pose if my life depended on it.  Thank you nameless lady for talking to me during class. :(  So after class I told her that I’m sorry I couldn’t congratulate her for her accomplishment, but that she threw me off my game by talking.   Can you tell I’m PMSing a bit???

 Anyhow, today is a new day.  My goal is to get 200 push-ups in throughout the day along with the team challenge.  I did well over 200 on Saturday so I know I can do it again.  Tonight I have a two hour circuit training + strength and cardio routine planned.  It’s going to be rough wrestling equipment away from people on a popular night like tonight.  There is a kickboxing class but it starts later and I don’t have more then 2 hrs to spare. 

 Food - finally have one night of success with no grazing.  Hope I can do it again today.   

God, I’m so nervous.  I don’t know if I can get any work done.  All I want to do is stuff my face with food.  But I have my water handy so I’m downing that like crazy.  Already got in 72 oz of water.  Ahhhh, thank God there’s no junk food around but good snacks and food.

My boyfriend is a good father.  Has two children, one in Texas and one his mother adopted and lives in Bellflower.  He’s been paying child support, as much as he can every month.  But the court system is screwed up.  They always want more.  They continue to suspend his license over and over and over again.  He clears it up with one court another one gets him.

So today he’s in court for the teenager, I’m hoping things goes well.  However, he has 2, 2 warrants for tickets stemming from the license suspension.  Those tickets are only $700 each but because he’s not working and didn’t pay they turned into warrants at $32,000.00 each.  On Friday, when we tried to pay one ticket, we’re told they won’t accept the money and that he has to go in front of the judge - and it’s up to him whether or not he is taken into custody or if they will accept the money order in full.  He’s looking at doing 1 year per warrant!!!  What gets me is it was a ticket for driving on a suspending license - not like he committed a ”crime”!!! 

So my honey is in LA, I’m a nervous wreck.  Who knew my feet and palms can be so sweaty?  

If he is taken in to custody, there goes his art school - something that our future depends on.  His school costs $100,000 for 3 years, each class is $1500…if he goes to jail we owe a ton of money and our future is basically gone. 

 I dont’ want to cry, I’m keeping my hopes up.  This is going to be a long day.  Pray for me guys.  I’m a wreck right now.

I’ve read a few blogs lately regarding exercise and fatigue.  I used to have this problem as well.  I would eat light during the day then go to the gym for a couple of hours; but wonder why I don’t have the energy to go at it 100%.

What works for me, the weapon for combating fatigue during workout - especially your cardio portion is pre-exercise and post-exercise snack.  For example today, I had a ton of energy!!!!!! But I ate - I had a restless night so I ate a pre-exercise meal early in the morning - it was carbs and protein.  Then an hour before hittin’ the gym I grabbed 1/2 a banana and don’t forget the water. After I did my lower body strength condtioning, I did my kickboxing class and I was on a  hot one!  Music was good and I was on fire.

I also come home and eat right away and drink my water - 33 oz - finished the rest of my banana.  I’m not hungry, I feel full but I’m sure this won’t last for too long.

I was suppose to go to a yoga class but I loved my home practice with my master yogi RodneyYee DVD so much I’ll do it again tonight.  And it’s 2 hours so I won’t do it right now.

One thing I can not drink before any workout is coffee and those energy drinks.  Yes, I’ll be on one for like 15 minutes, but the classes are an hour - I spent the rest of the time out of touch with it.

I’ve been doing this consistantly, eating a good healthy snack made up of carbs and protein for a few months now.  It works, it’s simple and my body thanks me for not starving it.
I’m going to enjoy my exercise high for as long as I can.  Gotta go back for it tomorrow!

Now, if I stay focus and not graze, I can call this weekend a success.

Didn’t exercise yesterday because I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend.

It’s going to be a busy Saturday.  I have to leave for Los Angeles in a few minutes but want to get my goals in for the day.  We have to pick up Rodney junior and his niece so they can come play with my nephews.  Then run errands.

Don’t know if I’ll have time to get to the gym.  So I’m getting strength routine in here and there.  My goal today is to get in as much push-ups as I can, planks and pilates.  As long as I have a few minutes to spare, bam there it is.  Hehehe.

Once I get myself in a regular routine of exercise and eating right, the thought of going off course fustrates and irritates me.  To offset I modify my day to get in what I can.

Or else poor Rodney and those around me will feel the wrath of an exercise-deprived wench. 

When I met Rodney last year I was at a turning point in my life. I met him, got the job here at my company and started going to church again. Like many people these days, I was on a dating site and just you know, doing my thing. But this “fish” caught my attention and he was a hottie. Our first date was to the movies, then Denny’s because it was the only place open at 1am. We were there until 6 am then went to Newport Beach, the same one the show the OC centered around and watched a sunrise together. It was very romantic and beautiful. Then that day no sleep for me because I went with my cousin to an Indian casino. It was 36 hours with no sleep. Don’t know how I did it.

But from that first date on we were hooked on each other. He’s everything I want; FINE, loving, my best friend, good lover, great father to his son, great son to his mom, and we have share some core values and beliefs. Two months into our relationship he told his friend he wanted to marry me; I’m like yah right. Every few months he tells me he knows I’m the one. We have our ups and downs but for the most part we are madly in love and so good for one another. Where I am weak he is strong and vice versa. We are a complete package and together we’re a strong team.

Well, last night it comes up again. He wants to get married and asking me when…have I decided when. I told him when he’s done with school and our financial situation is better and OH YEAH, LIKE MY RING!

I know it’s going to happen sooner then later. I’m sure the ring is on its way because his mom is a firm Christian and would like to see us married rather then continue living together. I let you all know when it’s here.

This is my incentive to get toned up because I want to do the traditional Asian ceremony and Christian one.

Just found out I won’t be able to go to the gym tonight. I have to go to LA to take care of some personal stuff.

I had a feeling this would happened but I was hoping to make it to the Lift class as planned. Ok, so happy moment over.

What do I do? I adapt! Hehee

I bought a pack of canned kidney beans from Costco the other day; it’s stored in my office. So I did 25 push-ups aiming for 100 today, then did some tri-cep dips, then 40 reps of tri-cep overhead with my beans. I don’t have a lot of time because I’m leaving in 1/2 an hour. I hope to get as much as I can in and more tonight.

I don’t give up easily and if I can’t make it to the gym then I improvise. There are some stairs at home I can utilize later on tonight but the gym is open 24 hrs - can always go later.

Typically I don’t workout Wednesday - it’s my midweek day off. But yesterday I did and it was at a kickboxing class I rarely attend. 20 minutes till class, people started trickling in. Many of them are the same people I used to attend kickboxing classes with about 2 years ago. So they come in, a few rushed me with hugs and kisses. One girl shrieked and was happy to see me - starting asking a ton of questions. Then a couple were trying to introduce me to new people. I kept missing a few people so it went back and for like that till the instructor came in. It was nice meeting all of my old friends, people I used to hang out with a few days a week during my single days. I knew about 20 of the 45 people there. So we all sort of stuck together and had a kickass class. Ended up giving my number out to a bunch of them. It’s been a while since we got together and have dinner and go clubbing. As a group we always draw alot of attention when we go out. Some of my friends are models. The girl, Chandon, who’s in the default picture with me is one of the models. It would be nice to have them meet my boyfriend one day. They only knew me as a single girl, not tied down girl.

What I got from last night - everyone was struck by my weight loss - and they were happy for me. For once in my life, I accepted compliments without deflecting them. I decided to graciously say thank you, because I did work hard to lose the weight. Not only just losing, but also maintaining it and adapting a healthy lifestyle.

Many were amazed by my skin; asked me what I do to keep it so fresh and clean looking. I suffered from acne most of my life; so having clear skin is only something I used to dream of. I told them a ton of water and now I added ceyanne pepper and raw garlic to my arsenol. I use to buy expensive department store crap - but nothing use to work because you have to be healthy inside out.

The only thing I do for my skin is wash it with a cleanser or just a bar of Dove soap, moisturize it with night cream or day cream and that’s it. I buy everything from the cosmetic center of Target or Walgreen - no fancy smancy stuff. I also stopped wearing foundation and powder daily. I think that helps. Rarely do I wear make-up. The only thing I do is my eyebrows, some eyeshadow and lip balm. I do put on the complete do when I go out with my honey and friends. But daly, just wash and mositurize. Simple.