HI HI HI HI HI HI!!!!

WOW it’s been almost 3 weeks since my last blog.  That is a freakin’ record!!!!

I have to say, life has been very interesting.  I miss my honey of course!!!!  Well - both immigration and criminal lawyers are retained and things are slowly unraveling itself.

As for me - let me see - of course nothing FITS anymore because my eating has skyrocketed.  I tell Rod this and he continues to drool over my added fat cells.  He loves it.  I don’t.  My double chin is back BUT it’s ok though!!!!

I have been added to the fun and exclusive lists of intructor related fun stuff!

I have for the next two weeks, 2 showcases, one at the UFC Gym which is a martial arts + gym.  2 of the 3 instructors who got certified wants hot hula there badly so we are doing a caravan tomorrow to L.A. for that.

Then next week I have another showcase for Bally’s in Long Beach - for my master instructor Linda.  Hopefully she gets that gig. Although Balley’s charge their members $5 per session where as 24HR does not.

But these two events will be my first since certification.  I know there will be more fun stuff!

And I have an optional certification for Siva 1&2 coming up at the end of the month.  That whole mic thing getting in front of people is scaring me again though!!!

Today I have 3 hours of fun!!! Almost 3!  Weights, then yoga then Hot Hula!

Busy with birthday clubbing and well Keeping sane because I want my baby home.

MISS U GUYS!!!

Last Saturday was our certification for hot hula Siva 3&4.  We went to a gym in L.A.   I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to see mainly people from my area.  It was about 30 people strong.

Right off the beginning, we are told this is an instructor course - so the first 2 hours were spent going over materials, cueing, history of Polynesia and instructor base fun not really, boring stuff.

Then we started the breakdown of the first Siva (choreography).  It was fun………for a while.  Until we did it over and over and over again.  Then we partnered up to clean up executions of different moves.

Around 1 we had a master class where the public was invited to do Siva 3 with us.   That was  a ton of fun.

Then back to Siva 4.

The worse part of my day was mic time.  I completely froze!!!!  I was nervous, stage fright - all rolled into one.  The moment the mic was on - I lost count, lost my cue, couldn’t hear the drum beat - I had an anxiety attack.  It was bad.  I thought to myself - what the hell Am I doing this for???????????

At one one I wanted to quit because I didn’t want to do mic time - but I pushed through.  We are all equally nervous save a few seasoned Zumba, Kickboxing instructors and 3 professional dancers.  You think they made us nervous?  YES!

NOW I’M CERTIFIED TO KICK YOUR BOOOTAY! LITERALLY! 

I have the music, videos so I can practice all day long at home and hopefully with the help of my mentors Ken, Bianca and Linda I can audition at one of the gyms and pass that.

Thank you for your support.  Sorry - I’ve been MIA for a few days. 

Oh and I am sore as shi* today tooo!~!!!  5 hrs of dancing I can barely walk.

Yesterday morning I thought without a car no way was I going to make it to the hot hula taping.   But FB saved me and my girlfriend came by to pick me up.

We got there early but so did everyone else!!!!!!

Luckily we made the 55 people cut.

We did 3 SIVA or choreography!  It was soooooo much fun.  I laughed at how me and oh like 90% of the girls wore black tank tops to hide our top and tummies.

The live band of 5 and the video production was so much fun and a great experience.

Was impressed people didn’t go all out and got dolled up.  I didn’t because I was running around and didn’t have time to really put any make-up on.

Only thing was we were sooo tired we ended up at Mcdonald’s and I ate a 20 pc nugget meal and fries.  :(  But oh well we worked it off!

Skinny Jackie is like 90lbs wet ate 3 burgers and a sundae!!! Hate her!  JK I love that girl.

Tonight is hula again at my regular gym.

THEN SATURDAY IS MY HOT HULA CERTIFICATION!!!!!!! I’m told no lunch breaks!  Pure dancing for 7 hours!

What the hell?  I can’t tend to my harvest - my poor homestead will be overgrown with weed! LOL

SHOULD ADD - I AM A FRONTIERVILLE LOVER - SO IF YOU ARE ON FB AND A FRONTIER PERSON - FRIEND ME THEN NEIGHBOR ME!!!!!

Facebook went down - I should get a twitter account.

How ironic that buddyslim is up!!!!!!!!!!   So I’m back to my home here on buddyslim trying to catch up with the cats and my buddies.

Today I’m having the yummiest veggie meal from Mother’s Market along side soy chicken - yummy!!  Let’s forget about the pastries from this morning.

Tonight I will do either Zumba or Body Pump but not sure yet.

FACEBOOK - GET THAT DAMN SERVER BACK UP!! 

Is this a sign that I should continue my love of buddyslim?  I do miss the community!

YOU!!

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Love you Carole Joy!!  Carole - promise you I haven’t disappeared from here.  Just tired of all the bullshi* drama.

It’s been rather quiet around here hasn’t it?  For me, I’ve been escaping my reality.  Getting away so I don’t have to deal with the day to day grind of Rod’s immigration issues.  I was told by both mom and son, that they wouldn’t tell me much about the case - I really don’t want to know the day to day details because it’s emotionally taxing.  I mean, I’ve given so much money up for both lawyers!! I’ve done a lot already!!   I just want his mom to handle the attorneys, retain them, do the paperwork or whatever but since I can’t be involved in the decision  making, because she is a control freak, then let it be.

But noooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!  I get called 3, 4 ,5 up to 10 times a day about everything!! First Rod’s mom, then Rod - I get so tired of hearing the same shi* twice.

All I ask, is to not be on these crazy highs and lows!! It’s too much for me!!!

I’m exhausted from it all.

The good thing is, I stuck to my workout schedule, eating was good until yesterday which was  a bust starting with an IHOP breakfast.

Other then that, I’m back on track.

Now - just to get Rod home and I’ll be 10000000% better!!!!

Tonight it’s pure weights then 1 hr of Zumba.  2 hrs of fun fun fun!

I really don’t have a lot to blog about these days.  Too much going on with Rod and stress.

But I will tell you my baby hustle up with his artwork and helped me a bit with money since I was stressing about it a lot.

I’m starting to take better care of myself.  This week I ate better and within calorie range.  I’m back to all my exercise, weights, yoga, pilates, etc.

BUT THE BEST NEWS OF ALL - I REGISTERED TO DO MY HOT HULA CERTIFICATION ON OCTOBER 2ND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actually dumped so much money into now 3 different lawyers for Rod and all his immigration issues proceedings that I thought no way can I afford to pay for my Master Class Certs.  But we found a way - an made it work! 

WHOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTIEE BOUNCEEE!!!

And tonight is certainly Hot hula baby for one hour of fun with Ken!!!!!! Shaking my bootay!

I just want to say, thank you to all my friends, real, genuine friends who invested their time and heart in my journey through this emotional roller coaster.  You guys stood by my side through all the drama, the hate.  You stood by me when I needed a shoulder to cry on, on the days I bounce back.  The last 9 months were the hardest in the 4 yrs I’ve been with Rod.  I have gained weight, loss weight, gained and battled depression through it all.

I have to say, if it wasn’t for you guys, this great community who spiritually stood by my side, prayed for me, kept me in thought, I wouldn’t of made it.  I couldn’t keep picking up these damn rocks and throwing it out of my way.  I couldn’t put one step in  front of another to get to the next issue.

I would have resorted to bulimia, to food, to emotional eating, to sleeping my days away, to curled up in a ball crying.

Instead I’m fighting back.  I stood strong.  I am back to my exercise routine.  Which by the way hot hula was so fun last night.  I’m back to supporting my friends.

I can’t fall back on bad habits to cope.  I couldn’t even hide from you guys!!!!!!! :)  Someone is always there to listen.  I need to vent - pick up the phone and call a few of you.  Not one person refused an email, a text a phone call.

If it wasn’t for you guys………………………………….

I WOULDN’T HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THE LAST 9 MONTHS.

SO THANK YOU

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

AND NOW

GO

EXERCISE AND HAVE A GREAT TIME - FOR ME!!!

I have a body pump class and a date with the elliptical tonight.

So do an extra 5 minutes for me!!!!!!

I ran out of facial moisturizing cream.  Yes, and I’m poor, broke, poor really broke right now.  So I did the second best thing……..and slap on some Vaseline on my face.  Yes, granted I feel like a grease monkey - better that then alligator skin.

I got the idea from watching Real (fake) housewives of Atlanta and the pretty Asian/Black girl’s grandma uses vaseline for everything and she looks good for her age!!

I would love to name all the stuff I use Vaseline for…..like to make my legs all shiny and pretty.

I know this much, my ex’s family who were Black and my baby and his family all use Vaseline for everything.  I mean before I met them, we didn’t own a bottle of Vaseline.  It’s like a foreign affair for me.   (I hope no one takes this as anything other then me sharing my personal experience and not be judgmental).

So this is my ode to Vaseline!!! :)  Any other uses to share with me? 

I am super highly stressed out about money for Rod’s lawyer but Whatever, I just have to deal.

TONIGHT - HOT HULA BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hellllllllllllllllllllllooooooo  buddyslim family!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know it’s been rather quiet around here.  Why is that huh?  LOL!  JK

I must admit to becoming a facebook junkie now Bewjewel Junkie…..and I have a few people to thank for that. 

I’ve been here on our site, but not as much; mainly in the forums.  I tried to hit up a few blogs but my head wasn’t in the right place.  It took 2 weeks to get over the intial deportation verdict for Rod.  I grieved, I cried a lot.  I was depressed.

It got so bad Rod thought, are we going to make it through this?  He asked me  to LET GO of the verdict and move on.  From that moment on a ton of weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Yes we had a dump truck for an immigration attorney.  We fired him!! We are hiring a criminal & immigration lawyer this week to continue with the appeal.  Soon baby - soon you will be home again.

Other then that I’ve been back to my hula dancing, my Weights program, swimming AND I EVEN FOUND SOME FUN CORE DANCER EXERCISE ON ON DEMAND TV!!

Rod and I need to stay strong.  He feeds off my energy.  I have to get back to normal for him.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY FOOD SUCKS A BIT, BUT MY EXERCISE IS BACK ALMOST TO NORMAL.

I’m happy again despite our ordeal!!!!  And if you want to add me on facebook it’s Nancy C. Mer.

Holla’ at me!! I will be reading blogs throughout the day.  I need my buddyslim therapy of love.   CAN I GET ANOTHER HUG???????????? 

Today I’m not sure what I’m doing for exercise since I have classes coming up the next few days.  Maybe just dance and have fun!